So have you made the videos you have always wanted?

[Knowname]

It never fails, ever since I've been on this forum the ONLY people to make threads like this are the people who's videos no one gives two shits about. Its never someone who, you know, HAS ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING, its always some whiny has-been, or bitchy never-was, endlessly pontificating on theory.

Make a good video. Until you do, no one gives a shit about what you say. True story.

No, actually BS is an equal opportunity employer, take editors who 'retire' as an example some are very notable. Not to say you can't 'retire' but it's a waste to actually say you're 'retiring' this is a hobby, there's no roll call or anything, if your not here, your not here end of story.

[Orestes]

All your videos suck ass, I wouldn't be talking faggot. If you don't care if people like them, would you mind not announcing your shit videos on the amv annoucements forum. Confuses us watchers into thinking we are actually watching something decent. Only to be disappointed with another worthless, fruitless, pathetic attempt video from a stoner.

You make me giggle, trying to sound cool and whatnot, by the way who the fuck are you?

Transcend, we can do this forever mr too long didn't read. Especially [Fix'd] (lrn2spell) tl:dr because I may have legitimate defences. Don't want to read that. Contradicting evidence is bad. And get your facts straight. I spent years away from the org, had a year vacation. Since you enjoy feeling like you are right above me, you will fight for your own justifications to yourself to the day you die that in fact you are above me. So I ask you, not just for the joy of flaming, get over yourself and quit trying to sabotage my thread

I obviously did read it if I replied to you, you can't pick up sarcasm for shit eh?
I didn't sabotage, I expressed my opinion on your idiocy (and flamed a bit, I apologize.) and afterwards I DID stay on topic by expressing my opinion on your thread.
And no I don't feel like I'm above you, you're the person that keeps putting yourself in that position by saying that shit, so stfu, I'm very aware your more knowledgeable in the AMV community obviously since you've been around since 2001.

/done

[JaddziaDax]

I've even made some of the videos other people wanted O.o

[x_rex30]

Transcend you are right in ways, though you may know more about amvs and the community than I do. I don't go to all the forums here, I don't watch amvs much anymore and I haven't made many amv friends. I don't participate in events and I don't go to anime conventions. I don't go the chat rooms, meet ups or anything like that. All you get from me is my amvs and my posts. Thats it. No other effort is involved in getting to know the editors.

And more on why I haven't made the videos I've wanted and what slows me down. It's an annoying rant so read only if your currious about why I've been so discouraged and easily slown down. May also explain some of my off the wall behavior. Talks about my self defeating actions and why I don't have a lot of amv friends. Partly because I don't want them because of stupid associations I make. Read on at your own risk. It's long winded and a time waster for most. But if you are the high curriosity type, read on. =)
 

Spoiler :

I've had few editors I talked to in pms and thats it. Part of my discouragement from trying to get more involved with  the community and make friends is the fact that I had an editor I respected since the early amv history in 2000. I watched his videos and so on. He seeked me out when I was the few to ever mention him on these forums. Even though I was one of his few fans, he judged certain things a certain way that made me mad at him, then he disqualified me as a fan. 

I appologized for freeking out over his opinions(he was attacking that controversal video of pwolfs and called it preachy and another video insisting it was religious or something like that and that I was trying to preach to him myself by showing him these videos). Since then he complety blocked communication. I wanted him to give me a chance so bad that I ended up stalking him for a week trying to get him to listen to me.. Then on and off for a year, I'd post something that he had to read, and after the whole(leave me alone and go kill yourself) crap, I gave up. He's the only person I have ever stalked in my life because of my nerd/fan rage. No longer could I enjoy his videos and the discouraging things he said to me threw my ability to trust myself in being a great amv editor. It was down hill. Other videos people made reminded me of effed up amv celebs or at least the ones I respected. I will not say who I did this to. He did attack and hurt me as well and I'm sorry I freeked out over this editor. I am sure to myself beo knows this ass clown who can't give his fans a chance has influenced beo, and I'm sure beo got to know him which may influence beos insistant behavior towards me.

I can say something like this happened with another fav editor of mine, but I never put effort in stalking him. I just knew he couldn't escape my posts on this site and it did seem like he did slowly respect me more with time since he can give people a chance unlike some people who are so damn full of themselves. 

We'd have good back and forth arguements in the forums here with some respect for each others posts. I'm sure he wont mind me saying his name here. His name is Dokool. Even though we calmed down about each other and found common ground at times, I still can't enjoy his videos today because he never seemed to end up respecting me as a fan.

Part of the reason I don't give up on people insisting on hating me is because I have a huge history of turning enemies to friends. I thought I was a god at it and insisted if I can't do that with you its because your mind is made of concrete. You make snap judgements, and once you made that judgement, it is impossible to chance because you are a arogant close minded intelectual. You think the first thing that pops in your head is right because you are an intelectual and end up diqualifying any evidence out to say otherwise. These people often like to be in their little world in thinking they are right.

Celebs, artists, heroes, people that influence me, if they dont want me as a fan, disqualify me, and then even after I  throw in effort to gain their appreciation of my loyalty, and appologies just incase I offended them, and they still shun me.. it destroys your appreciation for their art. If they say I'm unable to be as good as them in their art I'd like to replicate, it burns the ideas I was coming up with in my head and then makes you doubt your own abilities. Thats one reason I haven't made 100 videos yet. I let these things dis ourage me and many other little things. I know it's retarded of me but whatever. 

This is the crap that cripples my interests and creativy. Dummy. 

Because of a lot of this stuff, I don't bother to get to know editors I respect just because I don't want to get pushed away even more from amvs. I still have part of my heart involved with this hobby and if I keep meeting editors I respected and end up not liking their pesonality, I may be pushed away from amvs for good. 

If I was the biggest fan of otos videos, and he acted like beo did towards me, I'd loose respect for him and his art. So I can continue to respect someones videos, I don't want to get to know them personally, it just adds to these rediculas associations and destroys my ability to admire amvs when these things happen. Not to say I don't admire amvs anymore, or that I don't respect beos art. Its good that I was never a huge enough fan of his to let his unsettling personality deminish my ability to enjoy his videos. I'm not his biggest fan.. So it doesn't turn me off as much if he didn't like me. 

So this is stuff that made me leave the community for a while and why I have trouble enjoying amvs as much as I use to.. I have flashbacks over these things and I don't like being reminded of them. I'm getting over my irrelivant thoughts I brought up in this post and starting to re-apreciate, re-admire amvs again and giving them a chance again and my ideas.

I hope I resurect lost passion for this art. I never stopped having amvs play in my head when listening to music(though ideas dont flow as well do to discouragement) and I've always been able to appreciate things about the hobby and certain editors and their videos. I just took a vacation hoping to find myself, and now that I know my head focuses on irrelivant associations, I can see the brighter side of things and move foward. I like you people more and I don't make an ass of myself to myself anymore being obsessed with stupid assholes and stupid associations. I appreciate more and I hope we have more fun later. I'm am being more optimistic, seeing the bright sides more and willing to give this hobby another go.

Sorry for this rant. Sure most of you gave up on it early on. Those who made it this far... Holly shit.. Don't you have something better to do? Lol

[x_rex30]

"Transcend wrote:
But to be on topic, yes, I do make videos I do like, whether the video is good in other people eyes or not I don't really care, I don't mind being criticized to improve my editing level either, but I edit for my own reasons and could care less about being known or famous for doing something illegal anyways."

I wish I had this attitude. Good for you.

[Beowulf]

You are Voices of Ryan! And you stalked Fluxmeister! I had a hunch, you type the same way. 1 part intellect, 2 parts elaborate, and 4 parts batshit-insane. Didn't you talk to me on aim a couple times? Didn't you send me a beta like 5 years ago? I remember liking it!

Am I right? Cmon, I think I am. You even referenced Flux! I remember talking to Dokool at AWA and he referenced you. Oh ho ho, the plot thickens!

My inner 12 year old feels challenged by your ability to turn EVERY thread into a slow train-wreck/therapy couch. The only person, other than me, who makes every thread ABOUT THEM is you

I don't hate you, nor do I loath you, or anything at all. Its very hard to take you seriously. I would bet money that you have asperger's, or are a little bi-polar. You have to take care of your shit. I imagine your hormones/thyroid are completely fucked, maybe due to eating the wrong food, maybe genes, maybe a radioactive spider, it doesn't matter. You need to fix your shit up. If conventional medicine has failed, seek out alternatives.

I know my original post was very rude and abrasive, but its also true. Whenever you're involved with anything creative for any period of time, there comes a time when talking and thinking becomes masturbatory. JUST DO IT. Make a video. Release it. Then make another one. Release that also. Then make a couple more. You'd be amazed how everything just works itself out naturally if you keep on producing. No one gets to be a better editor/artist by TALKING about it. Stop being terrified of failure and just put something out into the world.

And just for posterity, I don't take myself nearly as seriously as you think. I'm a sweet heart, trust me, people can vouch. The Masterpeice Theatre shtick is shtick.

[x_rex30]

Hehehe. You may be on to something there. I also think I misread something about you. There is waaaaaay more to this so you know but I will shut the fuck up for now and maybe share more later. Too much emo garbageshit to keep this going non stop. I need a vacation to the bahamas. Then when I get back work on an angelic amv... Lol

I see everything you're saying and it is great words of wisdom. You are like a transformer. There is more to you than meets the eye. And thank you for sharing your perspectives. I find them to be very good. So lets move on now.

Carry on thread.

[OzzieAlThor79]

I think it's cute that people are arguing over the internet.

[x_rex30]

Only argue in real life. It gets you nowhere online because no one learns anything and people can't come to any reasonable agreement. Its also why I hate online polls. You're all retards.

[Castor Troy]

Are you really Voices of Ryan?!