The Vent Thread

[Dr. Derpface, J.D.]

Fan in my laptop sounds like its going to start grinding coffee, and last time I had to replace it, it was a $60 part and WAY too much of my time. I'd pull the trigger on a new computer, BUT I just had to put another $250 into my car due to a dead fuel pump...

[Castor Troy]

I worry about other people too much and it stresses me out. Always wish I can do something to help but usually can't. Feel like a shitty friend by standing around on the sidelines.

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This is something that often nags me. It's doubly hard when there's distance and other obstacles involved. Although I don't feel there's such a thing as "too much", it's kind of normal to worry about other people. Not much that can be done about that, sadly :/

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Now we know how super heroes feel.

[Taite]

Just had a little what the fuck moment today. Went to see my doctor after I had another episode and kind of just complained that I can't remember shit. My entire two weeks in Europe, forgot that shit. Lost a friend, forgot about that too. My week shadowing a nurse, gone. Everything from April to July is all sort of a blur, and my doc told me that I suffer from amnesia as a result of weeks of pneumonia. Just kind of weird being told that you straight up just lost some memories, some will come back, other's probably won't. I feel like my entire summer was wasted wasting away, and now I have to live with the consequences. Fucking sucks. I don't even want to talk to people anymore, I just feel like a straight up psycho.

In other news, I got this greek frozen yogurt at the store and it pisses me off because it tastes like shit. I feel so genuinely furious at this yogurt, I honestly think I'm just going batshit insane. Fuck being sick, fuck people who look at me weird, fuck shitty friends, fuck this stupid frozen dessert, fuck this summer, fuck 2012. fuck fuck fuck fuck. I just want some fucking macaroni and cheese or I'm going to lose it.

[Pwolf]

Just had a little what the fuck moment today. Went to see my doctor after I had another episode and kind of just complained that I can't remember shit. My entire two weeks in Europe, forgot that shit. Lost a friend, forgot about that too. My week shadowing a nurse, gone. Everything from April to July is all sort of a blur, and my doc told me that I suffer from amnesia as a result of weeks of pneumonia. Just kind of weird being told that you straight up just lost some memories, some will come back, other's probably won't. I feel like my entire summer was wasted wasting away, and now I have to live with the consequences. Fucking sucks. I don't even want to talk to people anymore, I just feel like a straight up psycho.

Considering everything else going on, I wouldn't be surprised if there was more to it then just the pneumonia (stress is what I'm thinking). I can't imagine how weird that is with that level of amnesia. Feel free to talk to me if you're up to it, I'm not 100% sane either so at least then you're on a level playing field I'm also perfectly ok with being forgotten, wouldn't be first time nor the last On a serious note, if you ever do feel like you want to talk to someone outside of a vent thread, I'm sure there are more than a few people here who wouldn't mind it if you just want to vent or simply talk to someone who's not within your immediate social/family circle.

On that note, first off greek frozen yogurt has always been nasty and second, mac and cheese ftw, goodluck on that.

[Taite]

Considering everything else going on, I wouldn't be surprised if there was more to it then just the pneumonia (stress is what I'm thinking). I can't imagine how weird that is with that level of amnesia. Feel free to talk to me if you're up to it, I'm not 100% sane either so at least then you're on a level playing field I'm also perfectly ok with being forgotten, wouldn't be first time nor the last On a serious note, if you ever do feel like you want to talk to someone outside of a vent thread, I'm sure there are more than a few people here who wouldn't mind it if you just want to vent or simply talk to someone who's not within your immediate social/family circle.

On that note, first off greek frozen yogurt has always been nasty and second, mac and cheese ftw, goodluck on that.

Aha, probably. I think a lot of it kind of goes back to the pneumonia though, causing the stress, lol. But yeah it's weird, it just frustrates me a lot is all. And haha, aw xD
Thank you, I appreciate the offer. (: Sometimes I need to just take a chill pill though, since half of what I complain about is pretty petty stuff. I'll get over myself sooner or later

I guess I just had high expectations for that yogurt since the kind at tcby was amazing ): And mmm yea boi.

[Otohiko]

Don't feel bad about forgetting things. Sometimes it's for the better, and amnesia is very typically a defense mechanism that protects you from dealing with worse things than just not remembering. I have several episodes in my life that have been erased from my conscious memory (ironically, one of them was also related to pneumonia), most of them to do with physical or psychological trauma. For about half of them, I had weird moments in my life where something suddenly triggered my memory of them, and well... that led me to freak the fuck out. To the point where my mind just kind of froze and couldn't function properly for a few days. Those moments of remembering were straight up some of the worst moments in my life, and most of these things I have promptly repressed and forgotten again.

And I don't think that any time lived is wasted. Even the very experience of blanking out and forgetting a whole period is a very valuable one to learn about yourself from.

[dj_ultima_the_great]

Getting really sick of the fact that my job is covering half of our basic necessities right now, but whenever Mom has to go somewhere, she doesn't ask me to take a day off so that she can use the car. She just tells me that she has the appointment and expects me to request the day.

When I brought this up to her, she did her trademark NOOO! at top volume (it's so famous that my friends who had never heard it before recognized it instantly from me simply imitating it beforehand), and said that I've been usually getting Thursdays off, and since the appointment was on Thursday the 30th, there shouldn't be a problem. This has only been true for two out of the six weeks of scheduling that I've had. I would hardly call it a pattern.

I'm not getting in trouble with work because she banked on me having the day off naturally and suddenly - surprise! - I work that day. I mean, seriously is this not common courtesy? If you're sharing a vehicle, you don't just take it when you please, especially for a non-essential appointment. It was just some stupid follow up that they could do with a letter in the mail.

But no, this is Mom, and she loves having doctors fawn over her, because she's a unique little fucking snowflake and special in every way. She would rather rack up another couple hundred dollars and waste gas money just to be told she's fine and "come back in six months."

Anyway, I'm just annoyed with being treated like my job is not as important. It may not bring in as much money as hers, but last I checked, I've been feeding us for the last year with that money, and that money covered all of those costs related to the eviction that she couldn't handle herself, even though those were HER bills to pay, not mine. So she doesn't have the right to just expect me to give up shifts for her (unnecessary) sake.

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perhaps "too much" for me to handle sometimes makes more sense to me. id be happier if my lfe was in shambles and everyone else around me was happy.

You know, I thought that for a long time, but after having a pretty crappy life for the last year or so, I realized something. Having things be bad all the time eventually makes it hard to support others' happiness, and when they have problems, it's hard to feel bad. "Oh, your co-worker was being a bitch today? Cool story, bro. I lost my house." Stuff like that.

You want to be the friend who offers sage advice, or the friend who steps in to help, or the friend who just rants with them so that they at least feel a little better for having let off some steam, but when everything seems to be going wrong in your own life, it's hard to focus on being a good friend to someone else. The fact that hardships and happiness are experienced by everyone is what allows us to be empathetic creatures.

So I don't think that wanting to hoist the world on your shoulders to save others the burden is really the right mindset. You're not helpless to help. Kind words, a shoulder to cry on, a day/night out simply to take their mind off of the issues troubling them, or just being somebody to talk to are all things that shouldn't be underestimated. Not being able to fix the situation doesn't mean you can't help them cope, and every bit of sanity you save them is another day that they can face with strength.

This is getting pretty saccharine, so I'll end it here, but you get the point.

[Pwolf]

Sometimes I need to just take a chill pill though, since half of what I complain about is pretty petty stuff. I'll get over myself sooner or later

It happens. Even looking back over this whole getting a cat thing, I don't really know why it's bothering me so much... either get one or don't. Still bothers me no matter how stupid it looks. That's right, i'm cool

perhaps "too much" for me to handle sometimes makes more sense to me. id be happier if my lfe was in shambles and everyone else around me was happy.

You know, I thought that for a long time, but after having a pretty crappy life for the last year or so, I realized something. Having things be bad all the time eventually makes it hard to support others' happiness, and when they have problems, it's hard to feel bad. "Oh, your co-worker was being a bitch today? Cool story, bro. I lost my house." Stuff like that.

You want to be the friend who offers sage advice, or the friend who steps in to help, or the friend who just rants with them so that they at least feel a little better for having let off some steam, but when everything seems to be going wrong in your own life, it's hard to focus on being a good friend to someone else. The fact that hardships and happiness are experienced by everyone is what allows us to be empathetic creatures.

So I don't think that wanting to hoist the world on your shoulders to save others the burden is really the right mindset. You're not helpless to help. Kind words, a shoulder to cry on, a day/night out simply to take their mind off of the issues troubling them, or just being somebody to talk to are all things that shouldn't be underestimated. Not being able to fix the situation doesn't mean you can't help them cope, and every bit of sanity you save them is another day that they can face with strength.

This is getting pretty saccharine, so I'll end it here, but you get the point.

Having lived through some shitty years (and reminded every year since), I know. Believe me, I do not want to relive those moments but in this moment, not having a whole lot of stress or problems, I feel like I'd rather my life be a little bit shittier if it meant that someone else could be happier.

[Taite]

Don't feel bad about forgetting things. Sometimes it's for the better, and amnesia is very typically a defense mechanism that protects you from dealing with worse things than just not remembering. I have several episodes in my life that have been erased from my conscious memory (ironically, one of them was also related to pneumonia), most of them to do with physical or psychological trauma. For about half of them, I had weird moments in my life where something suddenly triggered my memory of them, and well... that led me to freak the fuck out. To the point where my mind just kind of froze and couldn't function properly for a few days. Those moments of remembering were straight up some of the worst moments in my life, and most of these things I have promptly repressed and forgotten again.

And I don't think that any time lived is wasted. Even the very experience of blanking out and forgetting a whole period is a very valuable one to learn about yourself from.

I suppose. I guess it's kind of hard for me to judge, seeing as I can't remember what I forgot, obviously. When you put it that way, it makes sense. I've had one such experience like that, remembering something and just kind of losing it. But at the same time, I'd like to recall my two weeks in Europe. Kind of a shitty deal.

Thanks for the advice. I probably need to self reflect more instead of lashing out lol.

Sometimes I need to just take a chill pill though, since half of what I complain about is pretty petty stuff. I'll get over myself sooner or later

It happens. Even looking back over this whole getting a cat thing, I don't really know why it's bothering me so much... either get one or don't. Still bothers me no matter how stupid it looks. That's right, i'm cool


Having lived through some shitty years (and reminded every year since), I know. Believe me, I do not want to relive those moments but in this moment, not having a whole lot of stress or problems, I feel like I'd rather my life be a little bit shittier if it meant that someone else could be happier.

lol true. btw, you should get a cat. Apparently I have a new cat too O:

And I think feelings are better off being converted instead of exchanged. (:

[Pwolf]

Apparently I have a new cat too O:

You should take pictures of it and post them in the photo thread >.>