He got his first attack during his visit with Victor Hedström at my place, during summer 2010. He was in pain and I had to follow him with the ambulance to the hospital while Victor stayed home and watched over my place. At the hospital, I stayed with him over the night and watched over him. The doctors over there presumed that it was just a ''kidney stone'' and it was highly treatable, but fate was wasn't as kind. After a few test to another hospital, they found out that he had a high risk of cancer in this left kidney, and he was put into treatment immediatly.
After a year, they managed to get the cancer out of his system, but it came back and this time it was on one of his legs. At this stage, the doctor announced that it was too late to cure it, as it was already at that stage and it would spread again if they were to do the same treatment. After hearing that, he had two options to choose from, to either detach one of his legs and live a couple of years more, or to live with the time he had left. In the end, he choosed to live as himself and wanted to treasure that time he had left, and this is exactly what the person I've known throughout all of these years, would've done. He would never give up and live his life to his fullest.
I've known Magnus ever since I went to that one convention in Sweden back in 2006. At first he looked like a shy person and he looked a bit lost since he was searching for me (we arranged our first date
) When I finally got to meet him, the first words he said ''Your Danzeh video was bad'' I laughed strangely and there we began our friendship We started speaking about future project together after we got home from the convention and talked a little bit about our history. We had a lot in common but at the same time not, we still got along together. He was always being so energetic about his projects and more importantly, he was passionate about them which I always admired about him. He may be cocky in many occasions, but I never talked back to him back then because I knew he was still young and it's normal, and beside I'm rarely angry to anyone, and he knew that. When he decides to be kind to someone, and someone like me, he becomelsos one of the sweetest person I've ever met. People would often ask me how I could keep up with such a person, I realise then, even though he might be quite rough at times, I know this person has a kind heart, so I always took everything he said and didn't mind it that much.
Through this person, I've also got the chance to meet Victor (NeverendAMV) in a lot of occasions, and always had the best time together and formed ''The Swedish Trio'' eventually. Magnus invited me to follow him to Victor's place, but I didn't know the person so I wasn't unsure about it at first. After spending time with both of them that first time, I was really happy I went along with Magnus and most important of all, he introduced me to a new friend. Eventually he introduced to other people aswell, which I've become close friends with.
I can't thank him enough for what he have done for me and for the rest of us. I just regret, I couldn't tell him all of this before he left, and I should've been there for him when he needed to, which I didn't do. He was like a little brother to me and he would sometime open up telling me that he wanted to do the same thing as me in the future. Thinking about those words today, hurted me deeply and I was lost of words.
Sorry for the long post, this is something I thought about while I was taking my walk and remembered my memories with him.
