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I wish I did better during my freshman and sophomore year in high school. I've really screwed up a lot when it comes to school. I plan to go to a community college next year (I'm a senior) and transfer into a university for my last two years. That is, if I do good enough. I would like to skip the community college part, and just go to a university or state, but I don't think that's an option. Not that I'm saying community colleges are bad. Just wish I could experience living in dorms and all.
The school I currently go to is full of idiots, and I'm pretty much learning nothing from my classes. It's mean, but honest. Some of my classmates don't even know that Oregon's a state, or what curiosity means.
I miss my old school, where all my friends are. I had to transfer last school year, because of credits. I was planning on transferring back once I got my credits back up, but that's mostly just hopeful wishing.
I'm not blaming anyone or anything for where I am now, though. Because I know that it's all me,and it's my fault for screwing up. I shouldn't regret though, because it makes me grow as a person and blah blah blah, but I do. Yet, I still feel in a slump. I feel, I guess, somewhat hopeless? Sometimes, I feel like I've hit a dead end.
The school I currently go to is full of idiots, and I'm pretty much learning nothing from my classes. It's mean, but honest. Some of my classmates don't even know that Oregon's a state, or what curiosity means.
I miss my old school, where all my friends are. I had to transfer last school year, because of credits. I was planning on transferring back once I got my credits back up, but that's mostly just hopeful wishing.
I'm not blaming anyone or anything for where I am now, though. Because I know that it's all me,and it's my fault for screwing up. I shouldn't regret though, because it makes me grow as a person and blah blah blah, but I do. Yet, I still feel in a slump. I feel, I guess, somewhat hopeless? Sometimes, I feel like I've hit a dead end.
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Also, my oldest brother might soon move away to Canada. I'm pretty much going to be alone if he does, since I only live with my him, my grandma, and my mom. My other brother lives in LA :/ My mom, even though I live with her, is never home til late at night, because she goes out everyday. So my brother (26) is basically the one taking care of us both. And it'll be harder when he leaves. I don't want my grandma having to take care of me lol.
The thought of losing my mom or grandma (knocks on wood) scares me. When my grandma, who's 91-92, passes away, we lose the house because of some stuff. And we don't have money, because my mom gambles, so I'd be homeless lol. If something ever happened to my mom, I'd be an orphan.
I don't like to think about this stuff that often, but I know that it won't make anything go away.
The thought of losing my mom or grandma (knocks on wood) scares me. When my grandma, who's 91-92, passes away, we lose the house because of some stuff. And we don't have money, because my mom gambles, so I'd be homeless lol. If something ever happened to my mom, I'd be an orphan.
I don't like to think about this stuff that often, but I know that it won't make anything go away.
