dwchang wrote:hackerzc wrote:
That's why I'm here. If I can't at least make the cut for the contest with this years vid, then perhaps I should not be doing this anymore.
At least that's how I'm feeling at the moment. I change my mind a lot though.
Well here's to hoping you change it again...it'd be unfortunate to lose a creator over
just a contest.
Here's to hoping you get in (as well as a number of us).
Well, after viewing Vlad, doki doki, and Ashyukun's entries today I seriously went into a deep depression. The entries were awsome mind you, it's just that I have a bad habbit of comparing myself to those who are obviously superior. It's a double edged sword. Sure I can use this as a driving force in helping me improve and better understand what people like (I am not here to win. I want to, but that is not my goal. My goal is to make something people like. I want to create a legacy for myself. Something that people will remember. I want to be able to inspire others the way I was when I saw my first amv's), but the downside is that I am unfarely comparing myself to the best there is. I am extreamly hard on my self now adays when it comes to this stuff. So much so that I can't even take pleasue in something even when I do deserve some sort of recognition.
I know that it is totally illogical. People like Vlad and Tim Park have been doing this for several years while I have been at it for only 1 yeas(less then one if you take into account that my first two videos were actually experimentation in my futile attempt to understand the basics of digital video editing to see if I was even interested in it).
Considering all that. I have come very far in such a short time I believe. By all means please watch my First two videos, then watch my third. Between making the second one and the third one I took about 9-10 months just reading guids, a premiere book, seriously upgrading hardware and software, and experimenting a bit. Let me know what you think about my progression. Am I behind where I should be, am I on the right course, or by some strange chance am I actually ahead of where I should be? I really don't understand the time frame of this stuff. What I do know is that the average time span an AMV creator does amv's is 3 years. This is what I have based what I have done off of.
The heard of the matter is, I don't really derive any great pleasure from making AMV's. I never really have. Sure it it fun to see something when it is done, and it gives me something to do and keeps me occupied (which in a way makes me happy. Keeping busy that is). But unless I am accomplishing something I see no real reason to do any of this in the first place. But on the same note, I don't really want to stop making videos because one day it is possible I might make something people like.
Maybe this is something everyone goes throught, just going throught the my paces or something. I might just be taking it harder then others. Or maybe I just whine about it more.
I just can't help but feel like an outsider. Everyone seems to know more about editing then I do. More about hte technology. More about Anime.
It's quite difficult to keep up at times. It all just seriously disscurages me.
Oh well. I'm ready for the posts about how I am a whiny little b*tch, or how I'm just fishing for compliments. Both may verywell be true. I have a hard time judging my own personality since I span the entire spectrum. One moment I can be the nicest most agreable person in the world, and the next I could resemple the spawn of satin.
Oh yeah, and the final number was something like 195 or 196 (that's before DQ's and the like). OS....who won? Besides Quu...