When I sed that your comments picked me out as the antichrist, you misinterpreted what I sed. It's okay, it happens. It's just you leapt on the one bad thing I happen to have a good handle on, and you turned it into such a big deal.
A good enough reason for my smoking? I'm free, white, and 23. I can do whatever the fuck I want to. so the reason why I smoke? CUZ I CAN.
That's all the justification you need, and all I'm gonna give you.
Damn, I just came across as mad. sorry if I sounded pissy. But that remark on how I compare myself against the worst people and don't strive to test myself against those who are better than me really irked me. I do push myself to be "the better person" and that's why I'm not in bad shape. I AM one of the better people. Yeah, it's egotistical, but if you honestly look at it, If I AM better than them, I better, by god, have the self respect and self esteem to back up who and what I am.
Damn... Still sounding pissed. Look, I'm a really mellow guy. I go with the flow. I kinda ease in and out of the smoking thing. I can go months without smoking, but then, I'm out there, getting a couple. then I'm not smoking. Been doing it since I 'uz 9 yrs old.
If you think that because yall don't smoke makes yall a better person and above me because I 'subject myself to such a base and demeaning, and degrading habit' then yall need to take a good long look at yerselves, cuz there's something seriously wrong with yallz self-esteem if you feel like you need ta endlessly compare yerself against someone else... I don't need to, I know my own worth- that's why I can be so honest with yall.
I try the best I can at ever'thing I put mahself inta' an yall yell at me cuz I do somethin' that (to yall, at least) is akin tah peein' on da bible. Shit! Mellow out! 8) 8) 8) 8) 8) 8)
I beifly toyed wit' da idea of quittin' just ta appease yall, but then i remembered... Why should I try ta change mahself to suit the needs of ever'one else? I am who I am, an' nuthin's gonna change that, 'less'n i do it myself, for myself.
An' that, ladies 'n' gentlemen, is what makes me nearly perfect in my eyes: I don't rely on other peeps to make my image and life for me. I do everything my own way, an' I know my own worth.
Salute!
