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Mislead..(i think)
2004-03-17 01:20:07
Have you ever felt mislead before?...That something that you knew was 100% true turns out to be wrong?...I don't know if i was, but it feels like it..
Suddenly, Everything Changes.......and i don't like it...
deep down i know that i should just accept it...but i can't...i want to..but i can't.
the girl i'm chillin with at work (empress walk - silver city)..turns out to be 20..i thought she was at least 18..(i'm 18, but she could pass for 16)..I really enjoy her company, she's funny and we flirt a lot with each other at work. She's even called me cute on a number of occasions. We've been talking to each other on MSN till like 4 in the morning for like more than a week now...heck i'm even talking with her now.. I've never met a girl like her before.. She can dress sophisticated one time (which is super hot)...and dress like the girl-next-door the next (super cute)...She's like everything i want in a girl and more..(she loves my name for some reason..heh)
Awhile back, she asked me how old she looked...i said 19 or 20 because i remembered she told she was 20 before....She got kinda mad and said sometthing like"no, im 18"...either i was being naive or i forgot that she was 20..i actually believed her....
now that i cleared the age matter up, i feel like she's out of my league..I don't know if its right though...i feel like a jackass...I'm still talking to her, and i just switched my schedule to work when she is like she wanted...i'm confused.
i don't know what i should do.. waking up the next day left me with a bad taste in my mouth.. She even asked me if things would change. Being the gentleman i am., i said it wouldn't. ...but thats the half truth..
i started talking to her today at 10:08pm..now its 1:10am (Toronto)...i think we will be talking to each other for another 2 hours...Right now i' feel like heaven with her...but i know once we end it for tonight i'm going to be thinking about her age...and that scares me
I don't know what i should do...I didn't know that age would affect me so much...god...
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The Best Advice Ever
2004-01-20 13:46:43
The day after my accident....
"...Take care of yourself"
- My Dad.
Man, if that isn't support then I don't know what is.
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Cars...
2004-01-17 15:34:19
Today was fucking incredible....
....I got into a car crash....
Fucking Incredible....This fucking changes my fucking plans for the next few weeks. The accident wasn't too bad, but FUCK! Parents were surpisingly cool about it. I have work soon. Taking the bus, which fucking sucks.
Fuck, I need someone to talk to, but I don't want to talk to anybody.
...help
JOURNAL: MuSyX (Diviyan M)
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