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2004-08-25 14:48:23
What i'm listenin to right now.
Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm
Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what i choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
Wouldn't this make a great Kenshin video. - shame 2004-07-18 01:10:42 its a shame that when i finally decide to live for myself, and not everyone else, everyone else gets upset about it. I've decided to go to a community college and not go to the 4 year college i was going to, which means i'm not gonna room with the person whom i told i was gonna room with. So he gets pissed, my g/f's pissed cause she doesn't understand why i'm doing it, and everyone else i've told says its a bad idea. well here's the thing. I don't know what i want to be when i grow up, therefore, i'm wasting my parents money and my time when i could be working, and saving up some money. I'm gonna go to a community college and take a few classes so i don't get too far behind, and I might even get a 2 year degree in nursing. Who knows, but at least I'll be doing something that I want to do, and not what everyone else wants me to do. It's time i take my life into my hands, and stop letting other people run it for me.
- I just don't understand people. 2004-06-28 02:32:25 I don't understand people, as my title states. I don't know if its that I don't understand people, or if it's just that I think things are a little more simpler than they really are. I have friends, I have some of the greatest friends in the world. I also have a girlfriend who loves me and who is there for me, but I've been down in the dumps. I've had people who were close to me die, I've had relationship problems (trust me, I have), and I've even been so depressed that I didn't shower for 2 days because I didn't leave my room and yet still, my will to live never left me. I don't understand why people allow themselves to get so worked up about such trivial things. Even if the things aren't so trivial, I still don't understand why they let themselves hurt themselves. It's like they take a bad situation, think about it so much that it becomes worse, and by that time that one bad situation is ruining there life. WHY? So something bad happened, I'm not saying blow it off, but don't let it stop you from enjoying your life on earth. Life is too precious and too short to let things drag you down. It's summer, it's probably hot, and it's supposed to be time away from stress. I think that we all (we all is refering to all the people stressed) just to realize that the world is a very big place in retrospect to us, and that we are very small in comparison to the world. There are tons of things to do if you look hard enough, just get out there and find your thing, and stop being so mopy, because afterall, life is too short to let stupid things or people get you down.
- I feel so alive 2004-06-23 02:22:18 As quoted from the song A Point in Time by One Side Zero, I feel so alive is exactly right. My g/f and I are in a good spot in our relationship. My trip to California has really turned things around for the better with us. I'm getting a little homsick right now, I really just want to spend time with her. I'm glad i'm here in california, and I'm having a great time, I guess I just miss spending time with her, but I am very happy right now. But on another note, we've got a new studio member now. Brought in yesterday, xpinkpantiesx has become our newest member. Her first video was good, but I can see room for improvement. It will be fun to see how her editing skills develop over the next few months. I hope they get better anyway, what with us other 3 studio members helping her, she better get better. If she doesn't it really doesn't say much about us does it..... o0 Well anyway I've had a great week thus far. I've spent some time painting, making a little spending cash, and just enjoying the sun here in Sacremento. I've gone sailing as well as other things, and have just had an all around great time. I've also expanded my Dreamcast collection with Skies of Arcadia, Evolution, Phantasy Star Online, NHL 2k, and NBA 2K1. And to think all that cost me like 50 bucks. I think its a bargain. Anywho, I think I'm done here. I hope everyone has a lovely rest of the week!
- a Forked road 2004-06-13 05:36:14 I've come to a hard place in my life at this time. My g/f and I have had some serious problems lately. Let me just start buy saying that I love her very much, but lately she has been too busy to spend time with me. I understand she's busy and I believe what she's telling me. But there comes a time when its just too much. I haven't had a good time with my g/f in about 2 months, I've seen her once maybe twice in the past 2 months, and when I talk to her on the phone, I talk to her for like 10-15 minutes tops. I understand she's busy, but goodness, whenever I'm busy, I at least make time for her, even if it's just a few minutes, I'll tell her how much I love her and how much I miss her. She's seemed very apathetic lately and has made very little effort to be there for me if any at all. Whenever I try to talk about this, she get's an attitude like it's my problem. I don't know what to do about this, I haven't slept at all tonight, seeing as its 5:30 am...... it's just really bothering me. I mean, this is a girl that I've loved for about 2 years now, and now it just seems like its over. I do love her, but I don't know if I love the way she is now. In order to truly love someone, its nice to be loved.... and I'm not feeling that from her anymore. She tells me she loves me and she misses me, but she never says it first, and she doesn't sound very convincing. I think the person I fell in love with is changing into someone I don't love.... boy, this is gonna get rough..... But on a different note, my new video is doing very well.... much better than I expected. If you haven't checked it out, I hope that you would do so in an orderly fassion!!!
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