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Side note.....
2004-11-24 15:21:41
a few things that have nothing to do with my current rantings, but....
Joe got fired from breakfast a while back. Its a new thing i like to call"Fired from_____" and then i say what they've been fired from and under what circumstances. You can expect this little feature to appear in place of quotes pretty soon, but it wont be in every entry, so you'll still get some little nuggets of wisdom from me, and song lyrics too.
As i was saying"Fired from Breakfast"
Waitress: Okay, now how would you like your eggs?
Joe: Um, well done, i guess.
heh, joe, you stupid bastard.
and........
Now that i know you read my journal meoko, i'd like to state that way way back(I'm talking late may) i had limited access to computers and only updated once a week, so those were some pretty sizeable entries. I'm not exactly the "Long journal entry wildcard" lol
S'all for now.
-Later
Doc -
Onward to number @
2004-11-24 15:07:27
(in case you didnt notice, the entries are numbered with the shift key on...just for kicks)
Music:"Cold"-Crossfade
Food:Cherry coke doesn't count as a food, does it?
Well, now on to saturday's events, the true test of my legs endurance.
We played DDR. Oh sweet jesus it hurt. But i had to hold my place at the top of the leader board, so i couldnt give in. You gotta dig deep!! Okay, so maybe not the very top of the leader board(brendan is just a little bit better than me) I won 8 out of 12 challenges i was in(we do this thing where you can challenge one of the other players, you both do the same song on the same difficulty, and whoever gts the higher score wins....normally some monetary amount because we're a bunch of hustlers.....you should see us in the pool hall in bartonsville......i get rich everytime i go there...heh heh....) so my leg got a pretty decent workout. It felt a littel strained at times, but i'd been taking pain pills sicne i got back to the house after it happened so i was pretty good. The day was pretty calm, and aroun 5 we decide to go bowling and go out to eat. we finally get out the door at 630, and are on our way. Me, bren, and caset take one car, Joe, jesse, vin, and angie take the other.(Will was at some wedding thing and couldnt go out) since the only tiem i feel like watching bowling is if i'm betting on it, i'm just gonna get down to it...i finished 4th of 7 first game and 2nd of 7 the next. I blame the slight limp i had for throwing off my shot. It took at least 30-40 pts off of my scor each game. We go out to eat, go home, and Will is sitting on the computer. What the hell.
"WILL!!"-me
"What, huh, AHHHHHH!!!!"-will, getting tackled by me
"Why the hell are you here, you litle bitch?"-me
"I pulled some strings."-will
"Not bad, fuckface. Lets play some DDR."-me
"I will never play that game."-will
"quit beign a pussy. Grow some balls and make an ass out of yoruself in front of all of us."-me
"you're so critical though!"-will
"While its true i'll harass you the whole time, think of the memories it will bring 10 years from now."-me
"You mean the counseling it'll bring."-Brendan
That was pretty much it. Me, joe, and bren played ddr till about 2, and crashed.
-Later
Doc
Tonight I watch the lights go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you can still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue
And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue
Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me
And no young girl was claiming me
And naming me
And destiny gets nervous and
And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue, again
And your my good feeling, I'm kneeling
Inside her room she paints me blue
And you are my reason for breathing
Inside her room she paints me blue, again
Atlanta started raining on me
on me
Atlanta started raining on me
on me
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small imcrement number !
2004-11-24 12:38:39
Music:"My Goddess"-The Exies
Food: Waffles!
Mood:......indifferent
Okay, so i'm going to go through the weekend in chronological order, and probably wont be done with it till after this weekend, so im gonna be backed up a bit for a while. Anyway, back to friday....
The marching and had this party thing celebrating the win and other stuff, but not much of the night is relevant to the story. Soccer in the gym. I'm ownign the other team, as i very well should be. (note:this is the portion of the story containing the nearly crippling injury) Only problem, i'm wearing jeans, and i'm sure that you know that doing physical activity in a fabric as restricting as denim isnt easy. it sticks to you and lowers your agility, and other little hinderances here and there. As i'm coming down on a breakaway, Will comes out of the net to challenge. Normally this results in a goal because i've got no problem cutting around him,or just kcking the ball off to a side and striking it in mid turn. He starts stepping towards my right, because he knows i'm right footed, so he expects me to deke there, but i read him and pull the ball through my legs and spin to the other side. Sometime through my spin he slid over to this side, so hes blocking me again. just before i take the last step to complete the spin, i try to hop the ball up over him and take the lst step a little longer and go over him. due to the unforgiving nature of denim, my leg wont bend completely, so the ball doesnt get enough spin to pull all the way back to me, so will flails his hands out and catches it. He also re postitions his legs, and strikes the shin of my right leg...the only one supporting me at the moment. As a result, i crash down landign on my left knee, which explodes, basically.
Picture this. You smash a joint so bad, that you cant flex yoru ankle. The tendons and ligaments wont pull. Because a bone shard in your leg just sliced them. and you cant bend your leg because that same bone shard is now lodged between your kneecap and the rest of the joint, sticking into the cartilidge. i just stood there, junched over, with my leg hanging limply from my body. The pain had reached a zone that it almost didnt hurt. The initial pain was so immense, that nothing that could possibly occurr could be as bad. People say that when you reach your threshold of pain that you cry, but i think it broke through so heavily that i wasnt able to. I couldnt think of anything else. That pain was my entire world, taking over my mind and blocking anything else. I didnt even here will asking me if i was ok, or anybody else saying anything. After a few seconds, will comes over to me, and i tell him to kick me in the back of the knee as hard as he can.
"What are you talking about?"
"I need the joint to pop the bone piece back out. Just hit me dammit."
This hurt almost as much as the fall, but didnt linger as much. Needless to say, walking has been an adventure since then, but it's getting better. Slowly. more whenever i get around to it
-Later
Doc
I don't want to sit next to you.
I can't believe you called me so soon.
Don't try to justify what you did to me.
You're just one of those troubled girls.
Using me for everything but love.
Don't make excuses for what you did to me.
You kissed me, then dissed me, but now you say you miss me.
You used me, confuse me but you don't want to lose me.
Don't talk to me.
Don't acknowledge me anymore.
I'm just another score.
I used to be all nice and sweet.
Giving everything you want and need.
I can't believe I did it all for nothing.
Now I'm bitter I can't take no more.
Don't blame this on your bad childhood.
That doesn't justify what you did to me.
You kissed me, then dissed me, but now you say you miss me.
You used me, confuse me but you don't want to lose me.
Don't talk to me.
Don't acknowledge me anymore.
I'm just another score.
You kissed me, then dissed me, but now you say you miss me.
You used me, confuse me but you don't want to lose me.
Don't talk to me.
Don't acknowledge me anymore.
I'm just another score.
I will run away if you stay.
Screw your head on straight so it stays.
Don't talk to me.
Don't acknowledge me anymore.
I'm just another score.
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Second attempt!!!!
2004-11-23 16:32:00
Current music-Whatever DDR song bren is on at the moment.....i think its .59......
Food.....just finished a meat ball sub and a fast break
Mood.....could be better....more at 11
Well. I had the whole weekend set out for you guys to read. It was a story of pain(both the physical and the emotional kind) a story of weakness(mostly the physical kind) and a story of triumph(mostly the emotional kind) It took me roughly 40 mins to type, and could have rivaled the length of meoko's entries(i can see matt and ben's jaws dropping....lol) but then brens computer went haywire and the window closed and the damn thing died. So i'm jsut gonna tell it in small increments over the course of the next week. Not starting now, cause i'm gonna go play some Final Fantasy 11, but i'll inform you all eventually. I will give you guys the ever-popular cliffhanger and say this:it invovles one(1)car accident, one(1)near heart attack, one(1) shitload of DDR, and one(1) nearly crippling injury i sustained......more on that later though....but just to not make anyone worry too much....everybody is fine.
-Later
Doc
"Feel the burn now in your legs!!!"-bren......((dies))
(bren after kick the can on DDR) -
before i forget......
2004-11-16 20:24:01
Well, it sounds like youve hit an emotional road block there zeph.......i'd say your best bet is to come right out and tell her........regardless of what happens. Granted, the blunt approach is easier said than done, it works a lot better in the end. If you take a lot of time waiting for it, it'll just eat you up inside until you explode.....or something to that effect. and if you wait too long, she may think you dont have any interest, and go to somebody else (worst case scenario, dont assume it will happen, just keep in mind that it can happen) whether or not it works out right, it'll feel a lot better to just get it off your chest.
-Later
Doc
i guess the most that i can do
is make a call and tell you the truth
sing the words in melody
and hope that you'll believe me
here's another song for you
so this one this one makes two
still don't know where to begin
i'll just leave it at this
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don't
i hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes
this is the least that i can do
you know i'm bad at calling you
the best way i can extend
the lonely words i miss you
i'll say it but i'm sure you knew
you're what i look most forward to
coming back to where i've been
i'll just leave it at this
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
if you feel unwanted
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don't
i hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes
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