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stockholm syndrome
2004-05-20 13:43:55
super, super tired today. trying to strategize for this weekend because i don't want to spend frivolously. i did that at wondercon, and i don't want to do that again, because this period is shorter, and i gots bills to pay, homee. gotta pay for gas and food, which doesn't come cheap these days in california. only the paychecks do.
i have this sisley jacket that i've never worn outside until today and i got it over two months ago. it's pretty nice, i just feel funny wearing nice clothes when it's not me anymore. i had to get a lint remover because of all the dog hair/lint/ wool on it. nice clothes are too high maintenance for me. snore. it's cold today so i'm super bundled.
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brand new snow
2004-05-20 00:57:00
man, does my back ache. so i think i'm going to wait until i do my next amv. i have other things on my plate and i'm content just to have one done. I have a small agenda and a deadline coming up that requires full attention.
s hasn't called me since her bday and i hope it isn't because of the fact she invited me to hang out in LB only for me to decline so i can be in l.a. that same weekend. i'd like to hang out with her more in a less school/film related scenario. she's kind of passive, and one never knows with a passive person.
super, super tired. ich bin mude.
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policy of truth
2004-05-19 12:44:15
so i actually remembered to contact my bestfriend from jr high to let her know i'd be in l.a. she's ecstatic to see me, and i think it's going to be interesting. gf won't be there because she'll be doing her hair thang at fs. i guess as much as i would've loved to lounge in the hotel, i should learn to socialize more.
a and i have a history. it's an odd one. not quite queer but for awhile she was the closest person to me. i changed like an asshole but she sort of dug herself into drugs like it was life. i couldn't and it scared me. we were both in different places, like now. she has kids, i have dogs, etc. hehehe but it's ten years later and what do i really have to put on the table? besides a macross amv. am i going to my ten year high school reunion next year? hell no.
i bought the latest 3d world and creative screenwriting. woo hooo -
i'M STRANGER HERE MYSELF
2004-05-18 23:57:50
well, hours later and surprisingly enough i'm still standing. a lot less people are looking at my amv, and i guess i should be happy even 41 people have dl-ed it. current score? 3.43
my right hand hurts badly, i have rusted joints an unseen bruise and sharp jolts going up my forearm. wah wah wah.
hmm. english tea.
i did sit up for the first time in years. ouch did it hurt. which is a shame, i'm not up to par like i was five years ago. but that was then, eh? -
never let me down again
2004-05-18 11:47:54
i was thinking of the ova I's has anyone done an amv for it yet? I'm gonna have to check it out. I'd like to bring them with me while i'm in the hotel but gf's laptop is a mac and is pretty weak. so i'd have to subject myself to what's there. ack
today is the first of two loooong days. it should be okay if i take sufficient breaks. i've gotten used to it these last few months but i know i've aged five years since.
tracking expenses. i like my new bag, but i shouldn't have bought it. kind of like this trip. i'll get over it i'm sure. it just seems a little ridiculous for anyone to vacation in l.a. but i'm thinking of this as a business trip, which it is partly.
bbl
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