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a little more
2003-07-10 19:34:59
supose i could make more entrys more often, like this one ^_^
nothing really to talk about, other then i might get a livejernel account soon, and ill start double posting their what i put in here, so people can comment.
my new video on local is doing just like i thought it would, less then steller. but i knwo its my first attemp at a comedy, so i dont expect a lot of comotion over it.
~XenoDrake -
a setp up
2003-07-07 14:18:30
well, got a few new AMVs added to the list, havent added the New Day vid to my profile, but i will soon enough. ever went so low as to put one on local, and havent donated yet = i feel dirty. but at least you get to see my newest.
at any rate, here is the link to the local one ^_^
http://www.animemusicvideos.org/members/members_videoinfo.php?v=19947
~XenoDrake -
THE BONNY SWANS
2003-05-28 08:40:21
A farmer there lived in the north country
a hey ho bonny o
And he had daughters one, two, three
The swans swim so bonny o
These daughters they walked by the river's brim
a hey ho bonny o
The eldest pushed the youngest in
The swans swim so bonny o
Oh sister, oh sister, pray lend me your hand
with a hey ho a bonny o
And I will give you house and land
the swans swim so bonny o
I'll give you neither hand nor glove
with a hey ho a bonny o
Unless you give me your own true love
the swans swim so bonny o
Sometimes she sank, sometimes she swam
with a hey ho and a bonny o
Until she came to a miller's dam
the swans swim so bonny o
The miller's daughter, dressed in red
with a hey ho and a bonny o
She went for some water to make some bread
the swans swim so bonny o
Oh father, oh daddy, here swims a swan
with a hey ho and a bonny o
It's very like a gentle woman
the swans swim so bonny o
They placed her on the bank to dry
with a hey ho and a bonny o
There came a harper passing by
the swans swim so bonny o
He made harp pins of her fingers fair
with a hey ho and a bonny o
He made harp strings of her golden hair
the swans swim so bonny o
He made a harp of her breast bone
with a hey ho and a bonny o
And straight it began to play alone
the swans swim so bonny o
He brought it to her father's hall
with a hey ho and a bonny o
And there was the court, assembled all
the swans swim so bonny o
He laid the harp upon a stone
with a hey ho and a bonny o
And straight it began to play lone
the swans swim so bonny o
And there does sit my father the King
with a hey ho and a bonny o
And yonder sits my mother the Queen
the swans swim so bonny o
And there does sit my brother Hugh
with a hey ho and a bonny o
And by him William, sweet and true
the swans swim so bonny o
And there does sit my false sister, Anne
with a hey ho and a bonny o
Who drowned me for the sake of a man
the swans swim so bonny o
~XenoDrake -
now for the news ^_^
2003-05-05 08:04:52
well, with all the emotinal jibber jabber outa the way, for thos who are intrested in my progress with life and AMV, here ya go ^_^
i have found the program thats going to help me make this idea i have for a Video Mosaic AMV. as for that project, thats all im telling ^_^ top secreat, ya know ^_~
I have made little progress in school due to general lack of intrest. and the last few weeks have been enough of an emotinal roller coster i can think right anymore O_o
im really likeing this not being singel thing. having monique over all the time is wonderful. we like to watch anime and make fun of things like all the typos in the Noir imports she has. im not sure, but i think i could spen the rest of my life with her and not regret it.
i have so many AMV ideas nowa days, but finding the motivation to edit them is getting harder to find. but thats ok, so long as i get my best idea yet out in time to AWA pro, im happy. its time to show em what im made of ^_^ *said holding a +10 bastard sword of ego boost :O*
i have been slipping back into my gammer side, i play comp games a lot now, i supose thats whats talking all my time now, but oh well, its fun ^_^
anyway, i have curently 3 projects in Premiere.....stand and be reconigzed! :ORAWR!
~XenoDrapes....... >< -
Lost and Found
2003-05-05 07:53:06
Lost;
A friend, someone who was at once close to myself. they have been damaged and like a broken animal, they screem and cannot hear. i want to tell this person to wake up, to see th elight, they cant, the pain is still to near. the hurt is still so real for them to yet want to accept it for what it was. so i have lost this friend, possable never to be found again. im sorry that their numbness is keeping them from feeling. i want to talk to them again, like i used to. but alass, it will never be the same, so this person is lost to me, and i cannot keep myself submerged in this persons maddness, even if it means to cair for them. it is said thet if you love something, let it go, well my friend, i have done just that. as of now, i need you no more. this dosent mean i dont want your friendship, i just dont want your illness.
Found;
my human side. i do hate, i am imperfect, and i have sined. i will make my pentance when i can. but i also get hurt, and i have been. and i dont want to forgive anymore. a devil so vile has taken from me something i held dear, riped it from me, and now that i have healed with a lack of that witch was taken from me, i see now that i really dont need it anymore. like asking a person with a missing arm after years of using only one arm if they really need that other arm after all. i want it back, but i realize now i dont really need it. i can live and be just happy with out. but i am not as happy as i could have been had this never happend to me at all. im taking all this in and seeing that i have need to cair for myself more then i should cair about something or someone so far removed from me that contact is mpossable.
Moral Of The Story;
hold nothing to close, untill its yours and only yours. having contact with someone is grand, and having that contact taken from you is a greater pain then anyone should know. i want to shair my life with someone, forever. her name is Monique, and i have for her an apsolute devotion. this is my way of trying to gain from her the same. with her i will gladly submit my own will. but in the past days, i have learned the truth about having that same devotion to the rest of humanity. i have had my trust betreyed and i have had my feelings mocked. i feel as though some of my friends have forgoten that i to am a human and will not be steped on more then once. fool me once, shame on you, fool my twice, shame on me. and i will not be fooled again.
To: The Friend; i will not forget you, but i cannot beleave you. the tant of the devil stays with you. and as a conserned friend, i will tell you the truth we all see, but that you refuse to, weather or not you think you need it, your going to get it, or youll die from not getting it. their is such thing as a fatal atraction, and you cannot see it cuz your IN it. its like an anology i have of peoples problems. your problems make up a pool of water, and how deep in that pool and where your located at in that pool is where your problems have you. you cannot see everything thats around you. but i can, im not in your pool, im on the top looking down. knowing this, i ask you now, how do you tell someone they are face down, when they are so deep they cannot see the light?
To: The Devil; i have nothing to take from you for you have nothing i want or need. you have nothing to gain from me for i will give you nothing. i know that you seek not my forgivness, and you shall not have it. if in your heart your truly not what you have openly showed yourself to be then it will show through on its own, but i will accept no explanition from eather you or any one you controal. nothing you can say or do now will aton for your sin. only time, a lot of time, and then, maybe then i can find it to alow you the chance to repent. the chance you never gave me. i made my repentance, and you took it in deceit, lieing to me and tellin gme you had truly forgiven me and you never did. so you will in turn find no forgivness from me, only i will tell you i cannot forgive you, insted of lieing to you and telling you i have when i havent.
To: Temara/Devo/Feiti/Rozard
dont hate me for what i am. and dont think that my distain for the enfidel has weekend my relations with any of you. i was bitter and i will continu to be. but not to any of you. for with all of you, i cannot be hurt as i have with the other friend here. i will state this, my friendship with the nameless one was no more then what my friendship with any of you is now. but unlike any of you, i lost this friend to lies and mistrust, and now fear that the taint of the devil has poisend the mind of my belearged friend to much for any of us to be of any help anymore. like looking for a lost puppy, you have to know when to let go. i will not judge any of you on your relations with anyone els, for all of you are distant from me. relations in limited amounts, and now, no one can hurt me. this is my victory over the trust issue. i will only know thos who i know. i know all you, and even tho i have not met you yet temara, i know you well enough. to the rest, i have met you, and for that you have more trust then anyone els on the same list where your at.
~XenoDrake
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