- 2005-01-12 15:18:45 I just realized that my last journal entry was posted twice..hmm...curious..lol. anyway. i hvan't talked to chris sense ring dance...(1-08). hopefully he got to neew york ok, and hopefully everythings goign ok. I still can't ger rid of this fear that he dosn't want to talk to me....at all...it hurts to think that and not know the truth..I;ma bout to call his cell phone. i don't know if it gets service up there..but he just left sunday..I don't wanna saound desperate for happiness just by calling him..BUT I AM....lol..eeerrr...tough decisions..i hate them. well, today wa s agood day. got a ride to school. did good in biology, actually did my work. went to matha dn found out we had a test about stuff that i had no idea about so i got all worried, then the teacher told me i didn't have to take it..so i was like..HELLS YEAH! lol. then i went to drama and that was fun, i could hvae gotten a ride home but i decided not to ask ian for one sense he gives me rides to school everyday..lol. should i call chris? i can't nowe cause he might be in the middle of something....eerrrr...this is driving me insaine..lol......*breaht in* it's only been like 4 days/......*breath out* lol. ok. i can do this.....SHIT! lol...anwyay, i gues I'll go, ..tata pepl...love to all
- so....... 2005-01-09 17:01:54 ok, i am writting agian today. my mom is even getting pissed at chris, adna ll, and he left today and he didn't stop by to say goodbye, but he did already tell me that he didn't know if he's was gonna be able to. idk..my mom says sense chris thinks I'm too emotionally attached she said i shoul show him how unattached i can be. she says for me to go out wiht someone else, but no one i know makes m efeel the way he does.....on the inside..lol. it's just...errr...i hate life..lol. eww..i sound all emo and shit..lol. anyway..yeah..blah blah blah. I am gonna start working on another vid tongiht, idk to what song but...i'll fiqure it out eventully, ya know, when i'm half way done with it..lol.
- so....... 2005-01-09 17:01:48 ok, i am writting agian today. my mom is even getting pissed at chris, adna ll, and he left today and he didn't stop by to say goodbye, but he did already tell me that he didn't know if he's was gonna be able to. idk..my mom says sense chris thinks I'm too emotionally attached she said i shoul show him how unattached i can be. she says for me to go out wiht someone else, but no one i know makes m efeel the way he does.....on the inside..lol. it's just...errr...i hate life..lol. eww..i sound all emo and shit..lol. anyway..yeah..blah blah blah. I am gonna start working on another vid tongiht, idk to what song but...i'll fiqure it out eventully, ya know, when i'm half way done with it..lol.
- :( 2005-01-09 10:03:41 well, idk what's going on with me and chris, I love him so much, but last night when he was taking me to my ring dance he said i was too emotionaly attached, it hurt, yeah. there's nothing o can do about it, i love him and the way i act is just....nm....forget this..anyway. we left ring dance early, and i came straight home, basically it ended at 11 and i was home by 9:45. chris dosn't like rap so he wouldn't dance to any of those songs which were all teh songs except one, a slow song and he did dance wiht me...lol. but he leavs today for new york, and,....yeah. idk, what else to type/say. there's so much goignt hrough my head, nothing really important to anyone else though. so, tata. love to all.
- wow..look..i can read...hehe 2005-01-06 22:48:47 hmm..i havn't written anything ina few days, even though I've had the time and all. so this is gonna be kinda long..lol. i was pissed at my bf and still kinda am.....long ass story. and i went to church on wend..i havn't gone in a a couple weeks. the tonight me and my friend stacy went out with dustin, ryan,KC, and tyson to a little coffee shop that got turned into a rock badn place for the night witha bunch of local bands.it was fun, we ate dominoes out on thye sidewalf and kept piling up in dustin's car ..lol. it was a fun night..but..there was no drinking and no pot so it was all good..lol. tyson invited us to his party tomorrow night but there's gonna be ALOT of drinking and shit..so..idk..lol. stacy wants to go but i kinda don't wanna be around that. anyway..yeah, i mean, tyson is really kool he is, but the drinking..uh...no..lol. yeah, i've gotten very little slepp lately and all, not that I care..lol. I've HAD to fuckin go to school....damn. anyway, well, hmm....thjat wasn't as long as i thought it would be..hehe. anyway, i;m about to go out my new vid up, it's shirt and only half the song, but for some odd reason i like it....lol. ok, love to all...
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