- wiie 2006-11-24 09:55:56 is it thanksgiving over there? aww, Iīve always wanted to celebrate that...
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Guys
2006-11-22 06:39:28
Iīm so much better! You have no idea. Thank you so much for believing in me, it means alot ^^ I have almost stopped thinking about Tommy.. I talked to his ex, and he had treated her the same way. I guess heīs not enough comfortable in himself to be in a relationship... now I just feel sorry for him. I think Iīm gonna keep being friends with him.. if he thinks he can do it.
Iīve moved on and it feels great :D HOW IS EVERYONE? :O *jumps up and down* -
Quince
2006-11-15 05:33:04
Noo, ofcourse I dont mind ^^
Yeah I know.. I have tried to reach him but he doesnīt seem to be in the mood for seeing me. He thinks it would hurt me even more, and I guess he is right. But I still need to see him, and talk to him. I misses him so much and he still means everything to me, but if he doesnīt want to anymore.. Iīll just have to accept it. I still thinks that he at least can see me! I need closure.. I need him, but if he doesnīt want me, then there is nothing I can do about it. I gotta talk to him.. I really really do. I guess it wouldnīt have gotten this way if I hadnīt called him that night.. he didnt wanted to break it off by the phone, but I guess he didnīt have a choice when I called him like that. God, how I regret everything..
Iīm happy you were able to be friends with your "guy" ^^ But isnīt it hard? Wasnīt it hard in the beginning? Just being friends? I dont know how I can ever do that...
Thank you so much for your support guys, it really means alot. Iīm gonna have to stop this depression soon.. Itīs no use regretting things because what has happened has happened and there is nothing to do about it. Thank you again, Iīm gonna solve this on my own. I hope. THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME! <3 <3 <3 *huggies huggies huggies*
- Mxfire 2006-11-14 08:36:24 No problem. And thank you.
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mxfire
2006-11-14 04:19:42
Thank you for sharing your story. If I had been in Australia right now, or south africa, I can assure you that I would have kicked their ass. I just dont get why people treat eachother in such ways. Maybe they feel bad about themselves and want other people to feel the same way that they do?
Tommy (thatīs.. yeah, you know) told me when we met that he always had been a player. That he finded it hard to be in a relationship, but that he was willing to try. I told him that I sucked at emotions, I always had and that he probably would have to deal with that the whole time that we saw eachother. But he said "hey, itīs okay. You can always try, and if it doesnīt work out, thats fine. I wont hurt you and I wont leave you". And I was naive enough to believe him. I guess he taught me one thing though.. that itīs not too dangerous to open up to people, even though it isnīt worth it at all times. Itīs just.. I miss him so much.. If I dare Iīm gonna ask him to come by my apartment (me and a friend of mine is gonna babysit a cat for a woman whoīs out of town for a week and get to sleep at her apartment during that time) so that we can talk about it. I need closure, even if he doesnīt.. I dont want him to let me go so easily. I want to hear that I actually meant something to him... that whatīs important right now.
Iīm really glad that you feel that we have given you something Mxfire. And yes, games and such can be special and are effective when you want to forget whatīs outside of the little "bubble" that a gameworld can create for you.. but friends are still important, even though they can betray you sometimes. Make sure that you can trust them before you go in to deep Mxfire, thats all I can say. And if they treat you bad one time - dont give them second chances, because they doesnīt deserve you if you do. You are a wonderful person, and if they cant appreciate that, then fine! You dont need them, because then you can find others that do. Okay?
And yeah.. I think you learn from the hard things in life. I havenīt really had it easy growing up and well.. being a teenager is never easy.. I guess you have to go through it to become the person you are. Maybe I will thank all those people who has made my life hard someday. I guess it makes you stronger.
Hmm.. I dont even know what I am rambling about. Thanks for your respond Mxfire, it made me think again. Thanks ^^
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