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x-mass blues...not the song 2004-12-18 18:59:40 I really don't enjoy x-mas any more...I kindda stopped enjoying it when I was 13, and finnally realized how much my mom struggled to save $ up just to get us toys and what not. It just lost all it's polish after that. Since then I've lost my christan faith, so now x-mas makes me more sad and tired than anyhting else.
My friends created an alternate holiday we call EIDMAS, because we have Muslim and egnostic friends that want to celibrate together (broken down it means celibration observance), but the whole month of dec. seems over shadowed, and nothing can pull me out of this funk till well after New Years. I wish the month would just end already. I get picked on because of these feelings, and that makes it all worse. I'm not a morose person, I'm just more Hindu than catholic, is that such a crime?
Sigh, guess I'm done now.
...and the lost little kitty has stumbled into a treasure trove. 2004-12-11 17:42:21 Wow. My big brother got me into amv's 2 yrs back, but I never thought I'ld find a place like this (I'd just been receiving downloads from friends). I love this place already, but wonder if a non video making person such as myself will fit in. There are other spectators in the audeince, right?

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