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Friends can be so weird. (or at least that's what they tell me)
2002-06-18 00:28:16
Seriously, my friend Tracy is really naive. She acts like she's all tough and stuff, but she's really just an insecure little girl who throws tantrums to get attention. She's built this wall around herself, and only lets her BEST friends enter in. She made it clear to all of us the whole schoolyear that she was NOT in love with Shane Flotree, even though I begged to differ. I encouraged her to open up to him (or at least stop abusing him), but she didn't do much.
At graduation, her mom picked her up immediately after the ceremony, and she didn't say goodbye to him. When he asked me about her later, I told him he'd missed his chance. I kinda think he likes her, too. Tracy called me on the phone later and confessed to me that somehow, by not saying goodbye to Shane, a dam had burst inside her, and she had cried for three hours straight thinking about him. I had a feeling something like that would happen, and I probably didn't sound very sympathetic. Figures...as soon as the year's done, she realizes that she likes him.
Then, she called our friend Kyle, who also happens to be a close acquaintance of his, and asked for Shane's phone number. Then, she CALLED him...and it didn't go quite the way she wanted it to. He spoke mostly in "Um"s, and after four lines, she said, "Well, if there are no more words to be exchanged between us, then good-bye....see ya." What's up with that?
And now she's distraught because she thinks she fucked up everything, and she damned Shane for "doing this to her". I gently reminded her that Shane was, in fact, a ver nice boy and never did anything to her. After all, it was she who chased him so much he almost puked; she who beat him 'til he was black and blue; she who received all his attempts at conversation with hostility. I brought up points I hadn't mentioned before, and I think she got the message because she got all speechless and shouted out what an asshole she was. But then she went into her suicidal mode....and again I gently reminded her that killing herself wouldn't solve anything, and that she'd have to face uncomfortable situations in order to become stronger. I think she's somewhat okay now.
And...*gulp* I feel kinda guilty myself. For as much as I tell Tracy that Shane likes her, I think he only talks to her because word got out that she liked him. In fact, I think he likes ME. Not to be arrogant, but in our last few days together he became really affectionate towards me, and sat down next to me at every chance he got to talk. His eyes got all soft when I looked at him...you know, I kinda like him. That's why I can't stand to see Tracy beat him up so much. And he lets her, cuz he's so nice!
I'm planning for our group to get together during the summer. Perhaps some sand and lemonade will help remedy the situation for all of us.
Well, that's the end of another twisted soap opera in the life of Kate! :)
- It's Father's Day, dammit! 2002-06-16 14:54:51 I feel like such a bitch...it's Father's Day and I didn't even make my dad a card. Even though I don't like him much, I feel pretty ashamed of myself. I wanted to get him a new Clive Barker novel at Borders, but they were all sold out. Come to think of it, the only reason I was at Borders was because my dad was buying me two new manga in honor of my graduation!!! I didn't even help my mom cook him his favorite meal. And now he's off at church...alone, because I don't like going. Auuugghh, I'm a poor excuse for a daughter!!!! *breaks down crying* Sniff....well, I guess I'll make him a card while he's out. WAAAAAHHHH!!!!
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Proxy vid up
2002-06-15 21:54:00
Yeah yeah, I know...it's not really my video. Still, I feel like it is, just cuz it wouldn't be up without me!!! BWAHAHAAHAA!!! *ahem* Sorry...little God-like sensation there. I'm so pathetic.
Don't let the fact that it's a Rainbow Brite vid turn you away. It's actually really well done! Please check it out. It's called Rainbow Pulse, under the Proxy list. Later! -
I graduated from middle school!!!!
2002-06-13 16:18:18
Wow...this is so weird. I just finished my last day as an eighth-grader, and this fall I'll be going to Polytechnic High School. The graduation ceremony was interesting. I thought I'd start crying or something, but I was surprisingly neutral. Sure, it's sad and stuff, especially since almost none of my friends will be joining me at Poly, but for some reason I didn't cry.
The love of my life is going to another high school, and that sure made me sad. After three years of knowing him and loving him, I didn't even get his signature for my yearbook. He left too soon...and I'm such a coward, I didn't want to ask him for a signature/hug in front of his parents. The saddest part is, when I was going home with my parents, my mom said she met an old friend of hers at the ceremony, none other than my love's own mother. Even my mom had connections to him, when I didn't.
On a happier note, it's now summer!! If you hadn't realized it yet, this is my first entry. I'm new to this whole anime music video thing, though I've always wanted to make some. Maybe now I can get Adobe Premiere 6.0 and start creating my very own AMV's!!
Well, I'd better stop while I'm ahead. Wish me luck.
~Ravenmoon~
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