- 2006-01-26 01:33:49 Song of the moment; "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey
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2006-01-26 01:33:10
damn man, wicked long time since last entry. Halfway through sophomore year now... SO many things have happened. My two best friends have been kicked out of school. One for holding a party on halloween and another for possession of weed. I was present at both and participated in the party and in smoking. Pretty unfair and it sucks to be the last one here. However, grades have gotten better. Girls are still pretty available. Theres a girl I hookup with a lot downstairs, but I dunno, its pretty confusing. Ive had good friends and I have had girlfriends, never anything in between that. We'll see, its just a really tough situation, and its been much harder recently. Hmm what else. A lot of my friends are spread out this year, so thats made it hard to maintain friendships, but I've been doing pretty well with that I'd say. Currently I'm on deferred suspension from housing, which means if I ever get caught with anything in the next 4 months, I get kicked out of school. Pretty harsh, eh? Yeah, so I'm laying low. I still go out to a lot of parties, I'm just ready to hide in a closet or run into the woods if anyone knocks on the door, lol. These are the best years of my life and I'll be damned if I'm going to waste them sitting in my dorm.
My last entry mentioned my trip to Switzerland last June. It was amazing, I had such a freakin good time. I want to go back to Europe so bad. I'm thinking about studying abroad in Span next semester. I actually just got back from visiting a friend who is leaving for a semester in Italy tomorrow. She was really sad and nervous - I'm sure she's afraid of all the thing shes going to miss out on back here in the states, but imagine how awesome its going to be in Italy. I'm really excited for her.
I found i've been less involved in video gaming/makign AMVs recently. I have been watching more anime though, thanks to a friend who has gotten me into FMA, samurai champloo, and gave me every episode of Bleach. I still cant get into a lot of it though, like DBZ which I just think is stupid. My AMVs are going really slow. Its like my life at home is all about that kind of stuff and my life at school is all about partying and having a good time. who knows.
Well, I got a 10am class tomorrow, so I'm gonna hit the hay. Feels good to write in the journal again though, maybe I'll get back into it. 'night! -
2005-05-30 00:29:19
Song of the Moment: "How About You" by Staind
Man, its been a while since the last update. I go away to Switzerland on Wednesday and I'm really excited to go to it. hmm, not much else to report in terms of updates. I went to my cousins house today for a graduation party,, which was cool.
We watched the new star wars there and then followed that up with the notebook (the girl cousins got second choice for movie on the big tv). Both botherred me. Episode III was really good, but at the same time it really bothered me. Movies get to me like this. Anakin becomes such an ass and it sucks cuz you get attached to these characters and then they all die or turn evil. I really didn;t like when Wendu and Padume died. I dunno, after watching the movie I just felt really empty inside, like, "that's it". It's over. I mean I'm no Star Wars convention nerd or anything, I've seen all the movies once or twice so it shouldn't bother me like this. I dunno. Weird.
Then the notebook was wicked sad too. I'll admit it. I can be a sap for chick flicks, lol. It definately makes it easier for me to get dates though :P. Anyways, that movie really just reminded me how afraid I am of getting old. It's about two lovebirds who fall in love at 17 and the girl and guy both go away to war and the girl meets a new guy and is supposed to marry him. But her first love is persistent and they end up getting together. It's sad though because the movie is told through the person of the guy when he is older, reading the "notebook" of their love (basically their life story) to the girl, who is now his wife and has alzeimers, so she keeps on forgetting things, like who her husband is and stuff. It's really sad. In the end they are both in the hospital and the old man sneaks into his wifes room and they fall asleep together and both die in their sleep. I dunno.
It makes me feel so old. Most would say 19 is really young, but there's so many things I still want to do. I don't want the end of high school or the end of college to be the end of the happiest years of my life. I want to experience everything, from the worst heartache to the purest love. There were times in high school when I would say to myself, "man I can't wait to be old and retired, to have all this stress and all this work behind me", but really, when you think about it, what else do we have to live for? A life is a series of moments and it just seems like so many memories and moments are made in our youth. I'm not ready for that to end. I don't think I ever will be. Maybe it'll be different after I've "spent a summer underneath the trees" or "danced in the rain" or done some other crazy thing in the name of love.
I think I might be an absolute headcase.
"Not everything in life is handed on a plate,
I sold my soul to get here,
How about you...?" -
2005-05-20 19:03:49
Song of the moment: "Post Script" by Finch
Man its been a while since I updated. Not much has happened. Talked to Julie for a while the other night which was cool. I hope we chill sometime soon. I might go hang out with Erik and some of his friends tonight - I want to cuz I;m friends with Erik, but he's in a different crowd than I am now. Its not like I'm afraid of having to do anything to fit in or anything like that, I mean I'm sure I could show these kids a thing or two about how to party right.
I just don't really want to drink that much while I am home. I mean I have to drive and all so I need to be careful. Also, my parents would probably kill me if I got caught again, lol.
Well, I'll see what happens. I'm tired from work so I could really go either way on going out tonight. Work was good though. It was good to see all the kids again. I'm a counselor at an afterschool/summer camp program a few towns over. Right now it's still afterschool because the kids don't get out until June 28th. Man that sucks for them. Thats good though, because I get to relax and only work part time until summer camp starts on July 5th.
Switzerland in 11 days!!! :D -
Back home!
2005-05-13 22:57:32
Song of the moment "Look at Us Now" by Sarina Paris
I dunno the song of the moment has no real significane, I just heard it on the DDR machine when I was bowling with some friends last night. Catchy tune. Takes me back to my DDR days in early high school. *Reminescence* Anyways, just got back from a friends house. We had a BBQ-cookout thing on the beach. It was pretty fun, except it got really cold and I had sand in one of my hamburgers. I was so hungry I ate it anyways.
I'm a bit pissed at my friends Kara and Ashleigh. They talk shit about my ex-g/f all the time, which is cool with me cuz ya know shes my ex and all, but then the next day they go and hang out with her. I don't want to be like, "Ok choose between her and me" but like, just be honest. I don't ever mind sharing friends, I'm not selfish like that, but it'd just be akward to hang out with Ash and Kara and then have Rachel (the ex) show up. Akward. Oh well. I talked to Julie last night. She wants to hang out this week. :D. Anchorman references have been killed, so this time I'm ending the entry differently. I'll catchya later AMV.org.
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