JOURNAL: Bebe399 (Andrea )

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  • Suicide 2005-03-31 15:26:10 Suicide
    Life has gotten worsted knowing that I’ll never be happy sitting here in the dark wishing someone will save me the blade against my skin cutting away my pain and sorrow pretending to be something I am but not being happy really knowing that I’m sad cant tell no one the truth cause so sad keeping it inside balling up I will never be happy till you free me from my living hell hold save me before I die from my life that i was born into committing suicide seems to be the only way but I pray it wouldn't come to this point now blade against my neck on thing i have to pierce my skin that will be the end to my life and living hell blood flowing from my body .blood to my hands last breath knowing never feel see been in pain anymore my life finally over take me from me own destruction . 
  • The breakup heard around the school! 2005-03-29 12:13:55 Today was alright was mrs.taylor everyone talking about brittney carter and donald broke up already knew they would they are in relationship for the wrong reason well whatever went to mr.olsen class talk to my gurls then mr.olsen wanted me go to office give the attendence to the lady he was watching me like i’m going skip class(i trying to) third period skip for couple minutes then I had turoring then danille ,eboni ,an rest of my gurls skip rest of class until lunch then we went back to class fourth period walk in mr.knight class late as always i told him i had to walk a student to class lol everyone was laughing really was trying see if there was fight down on “D” hall but it wasnt just some slow boy’s just running sat class talk to everyone making jokes about mr.knight again then went talk to larry for awhile then talk to nadiea<--still dont know how to spell her name well she had a shirt say your real punk had a bunch questions on it and ask them to her she was answering it was funny then chris making fake blunts and stupid me to say telling him the arent that small and he talking about he use injection dumb enough I said i was like when you put a needle in your skin it leaves a brown spot everyone was super surprise I need to stop talking about drugs lol then went to my locker with kelsey talk about marcus got home start washing clothes and start playing my music listening “hold you down” they use “fuck’ all in the being of the song lol waiting till five thirty to talk to stephen my day was super boring tomorrow try to have a fun day if mrs.viars isnt there and mrs.archer isnt i’ll be the happiest girl in the world lol well i’m out later  
  • My Day back to school 2005-03-29 12:13:07 Today went to school still feeelin a little sick had Art class I just painted my horrible teapot and sat their talk to jessica tiana and kiana about my perverted mind and everything they do I put it in a negative way i really dont do that but sometimes lol second block trying to skip it with tabitha but miss morris wouldn't let me out of the room so sat there taking notes all period the my third class my math teacher was sick yay! we had sub-teacher i got to talk me and toya cheating out of the math book and Bri Bri got upset cause this girl named brittney snitch on her cause she wasnt were se purposed to sit at are math teacher treats us like little children i hate my math teacher only lady who’s trying to fail me but now got a “B” in her class now so yay! for me dont she feel dumb now Fourth block had P.E me and kelsey , Tara did half credit so really just talk to each other first day haven't been jump on by Marcus he super hyper and crazy I’m trying find him a boyfriend even though he’s bi sexual i think he likes boy more then guys anyway left school got home billion of house work to do.Then I talk to stephen he thinks what he say’s is perverted I dont think so other people may think so but what ever now listening to music older sis want’s me have a party really i dont want one just want walk around say another year older then my own cant wait till i’m 18 own apartment then college brand new car parties coming home whenever dont have to here my parents mouths only thing going bug me they’ll call over and over again when i’m going somewhere with friends well i’m out later
     
  • Sunday How I'm feelin 2005-03-29 12:12:03 It’s sunday I’m at home sleeping woke up at eight try eating something ate a sandwich and chips it was yummy and then my dad gotten sick so my mom and sisters took care of him he must gave it to him Well he should get it now not later i’m feeling better then yesterday me so happy now i get to talk to stephen that i miss so much . well now my brother saying he’s feline little under the wheather hopes he’s okay . 
  • Sick 2005-03-29 12:11:25 Today been very sick hardly move I try to talk to stephen but i doubt it I’ll talk to him for long my day usually me waking up trying find the bathroom and sleeping and taking loads of medicine praying god that it stay down my dad taking care of me gave me this giant pill that i took but i chewed it i was scared that i’m going to choke on it .lol well i’m feeling sick again well later 
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