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  • Online :: 2006-02-25 07:19:17 My Forum is up and running after months of play'n around with it.
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  • Again. 2005-12-10 00:23:42 The final beat of my heart forms a perfect song with my final breath. the only sad thing is, my lifeless body will never hit the floor. 
  • To my fire, 2005-10-18 17:09:03 A shadow falls over your face and I can see the hurt that you feel. I don't want to see you pain the way you pain today, or any other day, how can I heal your wounds?
    Saying goodbye in a whisper hoping that you know that I mean it's not the end for us, for me.
    Empty rooms fill my head and I wander through every door looking for a glimps of your face. Will I finally see it? Is it hiding in the kitchen of my talents or in the basement of my twisted hate?
    Fear is out to get me and I'm running towards your light, will you take me in and keep me save?I believe you will.
    The surface is smooth and pale and it's appearans can be fooling. I'm insecure, but you've made me except what I want and show it.
    Your right I love it, the love you gave me beats my heart and I feel ashamed for wanting more. Should I feel this way?
    You know my inner yearnings and when you pay me a compliment my heart blushes, thank you.
    You ask why I love you the way I do and I can answer that it's the way you love me, the way you treat me like I'm not all that you want but that I'm not like everybody else either, you make me want to be better then what I am. Now I have a constant need to reach the sky, to reach your touch. To be more then what I am at this moment.
    You control me and I've never had that before, I was always the one who ruled and now the tables have turned and as much as I hate it, it thrills me. You make me feel alive. You can snap your fingers and you know I'll always be there.
    I remember who you were all those months ago and I feel how the change has taken over but I'm happy that I've found a piece of me that I never knew was there.
    I hate that I don't know if I'm all you think about but I don't want you to stop being who you are for me, I wouldn't love you like I do if you changed. I hate that I'm not the only one living in your heart but I'm content and happy being the one you shared your days with.
    The sun sinks slowly on the other side of your eyes and the fire that you ignite within me does not waver, it burns through my soul, spreading a warm feeling through the shape that is me.
    Are we happy? Yes, I believe we are, my illusions can be misleading but I think I've finally reached a reality I can live in.
    Write to meif you can, think of me at least once every three hours, dream at least one beautiful dream per night.
     
  • Ble........ 2005-10-18 16:58:01 I miss you my Angel!!!
    It hurts!
    I’m so sorry about last night!!
    When I heard you cry
    My heart broke.
    But it just doesn’t matter anymore
    I lost anyway
    I might as well never even have gotten my hopes up
    Because once more I have been fucked

    Change,
    You take a small step to the side to make them believe in you but for what?
    But what is it for; why the fuck would you want to change if you are just going to get fucked before you even get up
    You turn your back for a second, to get use to the person you now are, only to notice it was all for not.

    I will change and I know it, I will change even if I don’t want to
    I will become me again; I will lose myself in my pain again
    I will pull back and hate
    So please just stay the fuck away from me

    It doesn’t feel right I don’t want to give up but
    Can you blame me?
    I was told to wait and so I wait
    I was told not to give up hope so didn’t
    Don’t, I won’t
    But where the fuck did that get me
    Back to the beginning
    Shot in the back left with a heart full of pain, a mind full of hate

    Now please tell me who to believe
    Tell me what to see
    Tell me should I be

    Because I want to die but it’s all that comes to mind
    What is there to believe if you lost it all?
    I don’t want to talk to you anymore i’m afraid of what I might say
    I bite my tong every time you come around
    There’s blood in my mouth
    Now please hand over my heart because I’ve had enough

     
  • Elite? 2005-10-17 17:54:20 @jubjub2

    How Come?

    I didnt know that Death Threats was a good thing...........
    But hey it makes me feel like the director of Evangelion, so it has to be a good thing.
    LOL 
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