- New Video! 2006-03-19 15:38:18 Oh sweet, the Genocyber AMV is finally done! 7 long weeks of production and it's finished. Oh and it's so beautiful. A flood of relief and excitement for me as my video premieres...
- 2006-03-12 03:56:31 I just found out a couple of hours ago that my grandpa died. I don't know why I feel the way I do. I loved him and I already miss him. I don't really know why I'm writing this here but I am. I had such a great idea for an AMV contest tonight, I was hammering out the details when my roommate called me and told me to come home, that my mom called and it was an emergency. I did about 110 MPH in my little Saturn. I could barely see because I was so upset. It's times like these that really make you come crashing into the ground. I'm so sad. I don't know what to do and feel very alone. I think I've figured out why I like creating AMV's so much. It feels like a way to channel my emotions into something productive. I know that even when no one else may understand it, I do. I'm happy to share what I have created with the world. I guess nothing will ever be the same again. My grandpa has been there my whole life, I just never imagined that he wouldn't. I guess I took that for granted. I had to write an email to the staff at the company I work at to see if people would cover my hours so that I could attend his funeral, that was pretty hard, but I had said what I wanted, that my grandpa was a hero. He served in World War II and helped build this country what it is today. Thank you grandpa...
- Still no music, but getting close! 2006-03-10 23:47:29 I still don't have any music for my upcoming Genocyber vid. But I'm getting close, nothing really seems to fit though. The closest ones I have are Zombie-by The Cranberries, or Hypnotize by System of a Down. I need an influx of new music. Something heavy but meaningful and starts out slow, hit hard after about :45 and just keeps going. Phew...I'm in for it...
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mmmmm....Genocyber! No music?
2006-03-06 22:42:26
Whoa...rough. Didn't think it was going to be this hard. Finding a good anime for cutting isn't generally a problem. It finding the fricken' audio. I found this awesome band called Dragon Force. They have one of the greatest guitarists in the world but the stupid lyrics leave something to be desires. 'Course, what more should one expect from a band from the '80s? So after I sort through the 25 some odd gigs of music I have, I still almost come up with nothing, or at least songs that are in my opinion, undesirable to my AMV. 8P
So what am I left with, weeks of cutting via Vdub and still no song. Grrrrrrr....so now, I have to find a good band that is going to sing a song that will go good with Genocyber. Destruction and little kids don't generally mix, at least not in music. (But it seems the main theme in most anime out there.) -
Life and Destruction
2006-02-10 23:47:47
Damn, what the hell? This is driving me crazy. You ever get that feeling of anxiety when you just don't know which way to go. Or how 'bout that craving to make a music video. That would be great but my computer isn't coming together. Sometimes I feel like it's not even worth it. What point except for personal gratification. I strive to be a better artist. I WANT to tell a story. But it's destroying me inside...am I ruining a good anime, does everything fit? How will people react? Should I litter it with special effects, or should I make it simple yet powerful? Should it be all action...or should it be interesting?
I feel sometimes that it's not worth it, that I'm no better than a lackluster editor. But I love anime...and I love music. I can't decide, I want to rise above and be recognised. But I don't want to think about it, I want it to flow with no thought process. I want people to go "whoa...that was different!" I want people to be scared, I want them to feel sad, I want them to be angry and I want them to be satisfied. I don't need an opinion, I need Destruction, like a lover that will lead me into the abyss of a deadly attack on my soul. Bring your own poison and drink until it blends with the edge of insanity!
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