JOURNAL: Aceidapunk (Dom )

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  • I'm not okay, I'm not O-F*cking-Kay 2005-08-21 04:29:00 Perfect Drug-NIN, I'm Not Okay- Chemical Romance,

    Okay, at first I thought I could annoy it. He had points with 'Hellsing' and alittle with 'FMA' but Bebop. Oh no. Oh no no no no. You do not tell me, I can not buy something or wear something saying I dont like the show. I watched Bebop on Cartoon Network when the midnight shit started. I would stay up just to watch it. Granted I never saw the first episode or the last episode. But I still saw it.

    Then I watched alittle with my friend's brother, the subbed qualtiy and fell in love with it more. That presented me to read a few fanfictions. But, Bri, had to the neve to say.

    "Why are you going to buy that. You never talk about it....blah, blah blah. You dont like it"

    Whats there to talk about? The serise is over, we know what happen. Unlike Inuyasha, where god only knows what next is going to pop out. Theres not much.

    I could see his reasoning with Hellsing because I never saw the whole serise and didnt show much interest in it. But some of the things he told of th serise made me laugh and I did read fanfiction of that aswell. I only have 'one' shirt of hellsing. Which I never wear no because he'll bitch at me for it.

    FMA. I can see why hes alittle upset. But I first heard of FMA in Newtype. And the serise didn't spark any interest of me. And, yes, I did make fun of it. But I didnt know anything about it! Intill one night I watched it. I was like, holy shit! This is actually good! I like this show! I'm going to watch it now and stop making fun of it.

    No, not good enough for Bri. I got an FMA hoodi. He doesnt say anythng about it. Good for him. >:0

    But I also got a Bebop shirt. And a Sesshomaru shirt. It was a white sesshomaru shirt. Bri never wore White shirts. He bitched me out for wearing both shirts. I dont understand why. Okya maybe a little with Sessh.

    With Sessh, Inuyasha is my fav character. Along with Miroku. But Sessh pulls up in Third. There is no good Inuyasha shirt. And no Miroku shirt. The shesshomaru shirt look nice and look like a new way to support one of my shows. And Sess is his fav character. So I can somewat understand.

    With Bebop. He can go FUCK Himself! I dont really care. I love this shirt. But he bitches about it. Sure the memorises of the show are fuzzed and blurred. I remember being in 7th or 8th garde. Staying up watching thr show. Laughing at the shrooms. Thinking Ein was adorable. Loving Ed antics. I'm getting sick of it. And its like everytime I prusure to justifie he goes off on a tamper tandrum and walks away. Leaving me to go down and say 'I'm sorry' fuck him! Fuck him! Fuck Him!

    Hear me out first. When I was online looking for school clothes. I saw this awesome Trigun jacket/hoodi thing. I wanted it but I was like.
    'I never saw the show. Why bother buying it. Your just lieing to yourself, you might not even like the serise'

    I didnt buy but I still want. I'm not going to buy it intill I see the serise.

    Grr. Fuck Him! You dont know how nice it is to vent like this! I really have no ne to talk about subjects like this when it comes to my relationship with him. My Best friend/ cousin mike. I tell the dissagreements like this. When It comes problems of most personal matters. No one here to talk to. So I kinda piles up. So a majority of my entires are based on anger or something like anger.
     
  • I feel so.... 2005-07-27 23:59:51 Music: Different-Acceptance, I feel so- Boxcar racer, stay together for the Kids- Blink 182, and End of an era- Hopesfall

    Feeling slightly mad and more annoyed if anything. My mom decide to be a hypocrictal. She first tells me, that no matter what I do(around the house) or say, I will not sleep over my boyfriend's or any other boys house(including my cousin) intill i'm 21. But in ALL this lovely bullshited glory my BROTHER who is only 2 MORE Years older! Is allowed to sleep over his girlfriend's house and is allowed to bring her back her and let her sleep in the same bed. My brother is 19, I'm 17. I've been going out with my bf for little over a year. My b/f's family likes me and they have no problem letting me sleep over.
    But this is completely annoys me! I went to Paris with my b/f! And for 5 out of the 7 days there, I slepted in the same bed as him. No one really cared, hell even the teachers didn't care!

    I dont know, maybe I'm blowing it all out of comportion. Arg, but it just feels as if I'm being cheated! 
  • This seems to be a once a year kinda thing.... 2005-07-24 16:32:13 Hwello world. I mean...yeah. ALOT has happen within this year tro make it a most memorable year! [ A year I mean by 04 through right now.] The year kicked off [The year started when school started] with smething unmentioable that I don't think I would rather say or state. Moving on. sadly my grandmother passed away[bless her soul!] Around Halloween. Then I went as a cheerleader for Halloween, I froze my ass off. Bri went as a Priest, dont ask it was a dare. Bri, Ferg, Steve, Kelly, Raft and I were supposed to go as the Inuyasha crew.

    Inuyasha-Bri
    Kagome-Me of course!
    Sango- Kelly
    Miroku - Ferg
    Steve D.- wait, wat was steve going to be...
    Shippo- Raft

    Moving on, Chirstmas was wierd without my grandmother. OMG, Valentine's day. Holy shit! Steve L. my last boyriend FORGOT VALENTINE'S DAY! I wanted to kill him!!! >:0 <--angry face. But Bri like made up for it! He gave me 2 roses, 10 kingsize twix bars, a black hat with a red star on front, and a stuffed dog. I love dogs, specially the wolvish kind, like Huskies!!!

    Moving on, gues what. I went to PAIRS!! fuck yeah! But the first day Bri and me got seperated....and I dont speak french just spanish. It was with the school. But Bri knew how to use the Metro so we got back just fine. The food and board wasnt go, but it was $2000. So yeah. Anyways, It was a BLAST!! I regrette not enjoying it more!! We left France on my b-day April 24. I turned 16 and got my permit July 5th. I quit my job at Lakeside formulitply reason. And now unemployed. My cousin is trying to get me a job at Best Buy.

    I'm now addicted to playing Halo2 on xbox live. I'm Bahamut00x and I suck!! Atleast Im honest... I'm attempting to become a sniper[Failing badly I might add]

    Bri left last week for Boston, his uncle is getting deported to Iraq. He should be comming back tonight or today. My brother got back together with his girlfriend and he just got his first car. He works at AE at our mall.

    I've also become addicted to Ace Combat 4: Shatter skies[or Distance Thunder]and I also suck at that. Failed like mission 10 multiply times because I cant high enough score you need 2400 to pass and I was end up with 1800. And its on VERY EASY. *runs off embrassed*

    Oh yes I almost forgot. Me and Bri became a year on May 26. Wait a minute goes back a couple of post...

    WE GOT TOGETHER ON JUNE1!!!! WTF, I THOUGHT IT WAS MAY! Shit! Bri WAS right. Damn him!! Ok so it was june!! Early june on a wednesday....shit!!! shit shit!!!Im pissed now. grrrrrrr.

    Anyways I thought this was amusing.

    I'm a taurus in western astrology and a snake in Chinese. Bri's an Aquarius, and a Dragon.

    In the western astrology me and Bri aren't that compatible Since we're both opinioniaded and stubborn. But in Chinese we're like perfect!

    You make a happy, happy couple. Snakes are earthy and loving, slowly and steadily. Dragons are extremely warm and affectionate. You are comfortable as long as the passionate direction is a conventional one. You intellectually disagree, and you find the Dragon an interesting debater - a little showy, but never boring. In a lucky match, you motivate each other both financially and professionally.

    The western says the same thing if we work together, and not get into alot of agurments.

    Later
     
  • Am I good? 2004-08-17 12:36:25 writen: FRIDAY - AUG -13 -04 -10:34pm


    It's been an okay day. Went to the mall and got clothes for school. 3 pants and 2 t-shirts in Hot topic. Then 5 bras at VS. Proceeded to go over to my boyfriend's house. Only to find he's leaving for Boston at 3. Giving us an hour together. I don't mind. I spent the entire week with him. Tomorrow I'm going to wakefield for the air show and to pick up my brother from my father's house. Then going to cruise night at the High school. Its a event where people bring out all their old cars and stuff. Just to show and whatever. It would have been nice to have Bri, my b/f, there. But meh.

    For an odd reason things won't get off my mind. I can't stay focus on alot of things. And I tend to be tired alot. I've mostly been wondering if I'm good enough for Bri. Thursday afternoon we were talking and teasing each other. I very much enjoy it. But I mind a comment about blowing Brian. Because I was blowing in his face as a part of my teasing. Then he mumbled. "That would be nice right about now"thinking that I ment giving him a bj. Then yesterday. We were talking about his best friend and his g/f. Brian stated that Ferg, his friend, told him that his girlfriend gave him bj almost everytime she sees him.

    That really killed me. I'm not the kind of person that likes to do anything sexual for someone. I get sacred that I don't do it right. Or that their just faking trying to boost my self-esteem on it. I told my friend Angela this when I first started dating Bri. That the main reason I loath being in a relationship is that I'm now being forced to do something. Like sex or bjs. I'm still a virgin. I almost lost once in June tho. It was in the late week. Wednesday or Friday. And we, Bri and I, came so close. But I just got so sacred . So sacred. I hated it. I felt so ashamed by it. I knew Bri wanted it. He said he was sorry for rushing it.

    I cried that night for it.....

    I want Bri to be proud of me. I want him to be proud of having me for a girlfriend. He says his family loves me and that all his friends like me. Or can't wait to meet me. They say were perfect together. I took tests on how long our relationship would last, they say a long time. But I want to be able to please Bri. I want to make him happy....

    But he needs someone more expirence. I won't lose my virginity anytime soon. Probally not time 17 or later. I'm 15 now. It's too young. I used to think it wasn't but...that day. Made me wake up.


    Brian and I were friends with benefits first. But then one day. I commented on something then he said, what are we?

    Then I agreed to be his girfriend.


    I like being in his arms. I like sitting next to him. I like talking to him. I like being with him. I like laughing with him. I like making him laugh. I like making him happy.

    I want to look good for him.

    He said he loved me yesterday... I used to always say it first. Then he would follow. Online when I had to go, he would say it first. But I never heard him say it...then he did.

    When I told him I trusted him, he said I was the only person who did...

    Then one day(Around late June) at the movies with Ferg. Brian left for the bathroom. Ferg looks at the games there then states:
    "So, has Brian lied to you yet?"

    The mere question shocks me. But in my mind I'm thinking, This is a test, he's testing to you if your worthy of his friend's love(Since Bri was cheated on last time)

    "Why would Brian lied to me?"

    "Oh he lied to me many times before, you wont know till he tells you. Thats how good he is."

    "When has he lied to you Ferg?"

    He never answered. I told Bri about it later. And told me has never lied to me.



    But, the main thing is. I just want to make Bri proud of me. I'm proud of him. I'll happily gloat about him. And I wonder if I'm a good girlfriend. Again all these tests i've taken state I am. I'm the perfect girlfriend. I'm the professional girlfriend.

    Maybe I'm becoming paranoid about things. But sometimes I just wonder.


    I love you. 3 words. 8 letters. 1 meaning- Shy_azn_gryl - Anime-kraze


     
  • been 2 months 2004-07-07 18:51:31 Yellow card - Octorber nights, Finch - what it is to burn, Yellow card - Only one, Thursday - Understanding in a car crash

    immature love: "I love you because I need you!"
    Mature love: "I need you because I love you"


    Been forever, I'm geting to nelgatic this thing o.o. Again, alot of shit has happen......alot.

    Last entery I mention my ex broke up with me because of male friends and a male cousin.

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    don't ask

    Anyways, after that me and Brian quickly became friends with benefits. Mostly because I quickly forgot he had a crush on me. Anyways, bri was being a bad puppy that day my ex broke up with me.

    Supposedly, My ex started crying in the cafeteria about it 0.0(we broke up during lunch, actually Ang broke us up. Since I didnt want to be in the cafe anymore and sat outside........with brian......and Jen!! -_-)

    So Ang comes running out saying, "Omg Steve's crying! Hes crying dude!"

    And Brian being the mean tough guy he is, gets up and walks towards the cafe. I grab him by the arm and ask what he doing.

    He says hes going to make fun of him, yeah nice guys eh? keh who cares he nice to me ! :P

    But back to this lovely story! @_@

    So we broke up, he cried, I laughed and Bri got some lines in. But continueing on, me and Bri became bennaful-friends XD < way it should be no one will get hurt!>

    So about a month into that and now were in June I'm getting pestered by everyone asking if were a couple. Isn't that annoying? lol

    So June something something, I assume it was a wensday

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    hehe, yeah I kinda forgot.

    Anyways, on June something something, we became a couple. Yeah yeah 
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