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Sleepytime
2003-07-01 23:25:38
I'm sleepy but I can still stand. Wow it's been a long time hasn't it. So yeah everything is fine, everyone is ok. ^_^ came back to the org today, I have no idea why but here I am and what a miracle I'm posting too woohoo!
I got kinda mixed up with someone close to me and I really don't understand what to do about that... I mean I do want to talk to him but then again that would probably just cause troubles...besides if he doesn't talk to me I think he'll feel better and put everything behind... I'm just trying to do what's best for the both of us...lets hope it's the right thing to do^_^ - Time 2003-04-23 18:43:10 Ever been tired of waiting and felt like getting up and starting to search?
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Death...and rebirth
2003-02-25 15:17:25
My moms uncle...died... I feel like... I don't feel
I can't handle deaths... they make me think and realize how weak
we are and how precious life is... I can't belive I won't see him again
I can't believe he's gone....forever -
I am late for school... -_-
2003-02-20 08:32:01
Hey who ever said that I can't do whatever I want -_-... Just make me. -_-
Oh Yeah If I really wanna I can do anything ^_^. First people don't understand how fragile I can be but then when they realize that they forget that I can be very strong too ^_^. Since tusday night I've come back to my normal self. Thank God for that now I'm much more relaxed not thinking of anything else except my love who's making me gor crazier everyday and studying stupid biology-_- Biology would be ok to study IF I didn't have this stupid teacher that treats us like we're in university. He's been a university profesor so now he's driving us crazy. Yesterday I had to stay up till 3 cause all afternoon I was doing his stupid lab. That' took more than 4 hours to do. Hey you have no idea how long and precise he wants his labs so don't give me that look.
After that I got to talk to Jeff whom I've been driving crazy. ^_^ at the end real love will always prevail right?
People in school are becoming even more stupid that they were before I don't know, everyone is kinda... on the clouds this month.
One thing I'm not doing again is... :sigh: I know
And another one is not leaving my biology labs for the last day and Oh I had to do 2 labs that's why... -_- stupid Mr. Reeis..... ok he's not stupid and he can be ok sometimes SOMETIMES but he's tooooo strickt.
"Cause you are mine forever love... love will live on and never leave...
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star...
I wish upon tonight to see you smile...
If only for a while to now you're there... A breath away is not far
to where you are... ^_^" that's a song by the way ... And you know to who that's dedicated.... ^_^
Write again soon ^_^ Always and forever Asuka (even tho with different name now) -
Asuka or not Asuka this is the question...
2003-02-12 23:04:31
Man I haven't done a journal in a long time... Well a lot has happened since then. I haven't been able to post or anything cause I've been crazy busy on msn or helping friends and dealing with "heart" problems. Yeah the last one hasn't been easy for me but can't help it. 2 days ago I had a good talk with someone and I have never felt so bad and in pain. Its just that I had to hear something I didn't want to. So it felt like I couldn't breathe and if someone kept pushing my chest to stop me from breathing. I was powerless to stop that I couldn't do anything but...cry. So I did the obvious I cryed and cryed and then tryed to get my way out of that. Did I?
Well I hope I did, even tho it hurts when it's time to let go it's time to let go. I'm not a person to give up easy and I probably never will but the difference now is that I won't give up in my heart but I'll give up in the outside eyes of people. (go figure that one out) Ohh It's complicated...
So as you can see I haven't been feeling good (I gotta delete Msn) so I didn't even consider the fact of posting cause i'd probably go Asuka style on someone here if they said something not right to me. But coming back to the world of mortals I'm starting to feel alive again or so I think. Well let's wish for the best. Hoping that the ghost feelings of the past won't keep on hauting me, I will leave again and try to write more often. (not that anyone is gonna read this one either but I'll still do it)
I'm going to sleep now goodnight people...
JOURNAL: Moonlight Shadow (Viola M.)
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