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2004-06-29 13:33:16
>.> I just read the last entry I made in this thing. Over a year ago. Things certainly have changed since then. Just got out of the thing with Nekura-Sama, and I've been laying low for a while.
More recently, I reformatted my C drive and the DVD drive reads everything but DVDs. I forgot to back up my Premiere project files, so I'd have to work with what I've got if I wanted to finish anything. I'm not so sure I do, however - so maybe it isn't a big deal.
Hannah's been getting pretty bad lately. She's bold, spoiled, and in need of discipline. Last night was difficult, but maybe she'll behave today.
Earlier, I was chillin out in my underwear - waiting for my clothes to dry, and Mitten was crying to sit up on my lap. Knowing that shelikes to root her back claws into my legs, I told her 'no.' She must really like me, though, because she tried to jump on me, missed, flew off my leg, and - in doing so - clawed up my left foot. I must say, it looks kinda sexy. Didn't hurt that much. -
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2003-03-26 14:15:15
No, I don't have PMS.
Today started out well. I made plans to hang out with the guys this Friday when they go out to make mishief. Those plans sure lasted long...
So I walk into the cafeteria. Phil's in my seat, but with a little pleading, he moves. We're sitting around, just talking. Then Mike says "Ha, Sarah! You used to get around the block twice every night." In my own self defense, I told him that I only ever even hooked up with three guys from our school. He was even one of them.
At that comment, he stood up and went into one of his fits. He started shouting that I gave Steve head, and that I'M THE ONE WHO TOLD HIM ABOUT IT.
Bullshit. I've never done anything like that in my life.
I would've just brushed it off, but Edgett took it and ran. Over and over and over. "Did you spit or did you swallow?!" When I ignored it, he started finding random people in the cafeteria to ask me the same thing.
Even ANDY believed the stupid rumor! As we walked back up to go to C Block, he acted as if he thought I was denying it all and started asking questions of his own!
If that wasn't enough, Mike didn't hesitate at the chance to untie my shirt. Luckily, Andy and Scott helped me fix it, but to no avail, because Edgett untied it again in the hallway.
Edgett decided he really wanted to humiliate me, so he goes on to tell an entire table of boys about the stretch marks...
I must've been so red. I was mortified...
In Science, Mary and Emily helped to comfort me. Well, all they did was tell me that it'd blow over soon.
Bullshit. Hershey Park isn't even out the window yet.
In Music class, I sat in the back, but when Inge got up to sing, Edgett sat next to me so he could taunt me a little more. I had to play a song, so I couldn't move...
After the performance, we watched the Mighty Ducks. Andy moved to let Mike sit next to me, even after I told him not to.
About ten minutes, I put up with his shit. Brad was the only one who understood that I was on the verge of tears, and he told Mike to shut up.
Psshh, like that worked...
"Sarah, Sarah! Did you spit or swallow? Bitch slut. You let him shoot all over your face! It was all in your hair!! Then you let him slap you around with his dick!!!!"
I couldn't take it. I slapped him so hard.
I didn't know what I was going to do, but Mary saw some of the taunting, and invited me to come up front and sit with her.
I couldn't bear it. I lost all will, and with it, my ability to hold back my tears.
Heh, all Mike could say was "Don't tell on me."
Mary held me a little. She and Aimee cheered me up.
Not really.
But Lyle told me that he thinks it's cool how I always smile, so I smiled.
The bell rang, I walked out. Andy was following me, but I told him not to speak to me. He acted all agitated like he didn't do anything wrong at all. He actually BELIEVED that rumor. He's supposed to be my best friend.
Here I am now. I should be doing a lot of things. Eating dinner. Folding laundry. And guess what? I get a call. I hung up too soon to figure out who it was, but it was Andy, Edgett or Mike.
No one else phones without a proper greeting.
So... What now? I'll sit at another table during lunch, I'll move away from Edgett in math class, and I'll ignore everyone but Brad.
Sure, they say that they respect me, but whenever the oppurtunity arises, they don't hesitate to make my life a livng hell.
The worst part is, when they asked Steve if it was true, he said yes. -
The Library and The Lady Who Won't Let Me Eat Lunch
2003-03-13 10:18:35
I've got two minutes to kill, so here goes.
The space bar does not work. I hate the really old Gateway computers.
^_^ I wrote a nice PM to Kevin, and read his journal. It was kinda neat to see the progression from tired and sad to hyper and ecstatic.
It's 11:20 already, so I suppose it's my time to go.
Hi Andy, Klinky and Kevin...
You're the only ones I know who actually READ this.
^_^ I'm happy -
It's So Cold In Here
2003-02-15 22:19:45
I haven't eaten dinner yet, and it's 11 PM. Mommy went out for bread a minute ago, though, so I can make toast or a tuna sandwich or something. I'm freezing, and my eyes are watering up like I could cry a waterfall. Kevin isn't on, and hasn't been. Today has been bad. Mommy said Cafette closed early. I wanted to call and see, but Matt could still be sick. He is a sadistically sarcastic gay man, very friendly mind you, in his own way of course, but he's been sick and sober lately. He is in a grumpy mood and I don't have the confidence to make good comebacks right now. Besides, even if I found out that they are indeed open, it'd only make mommy more pissed off.
She's been mad since I through Hannah's breakfast on the floor this morning. She made me clean the floors, hang up all of her heavy coats and wash her sheets. To top it off, I get no dinner because she said I did HER CHORES the wrong way. Jeremy was cheering me up, until I told him something and he blocked me. I haven't been anywhere near that open wih anyone besides Andy. I guess I shouldn't. Daniel also blocked me for the same reason. I don't know why I even talked to him. I mean, he went to Katsucon, so i wanted him to tell me about Andy, but then he started prying, and I was feeling down so I answered his questions and he was quite disgusted at me.
Kevin should come on soon. He made me a sweet card for Valentine's day! I made him a wallpaper in return. Friday night was awesome. Kevin and I talked with one another for hours and there were no akward pauses or anything. We kept the conversation alive effortlessly, and I didn't want to go to bed when the time came.
I bet Katsucon was fun. I wanted to go, to meet Andy, but I'm just going to have to try for Otakon. It seems so far away. I hate to prolong it when I don't even know if I'll be able to go. My parents are so fickle and short tempered. I didn't get to say goodbye to Andy on Friday, before he left. I was eating dinner. Heh, it just proves once again that eating is the cause of more problems than solutions!
Edgett and the boys were calling me all day, and pestering me on AIM. I originally planned to hang out with him today, but I'd rather it be just us, and not Craig, Eric and Mike Collins. It would've been fun if he, Brad, Court and I went and did a few rounds of ring n run.
I ought to practice piano right now. Instead, I'll watch Strawberry Eggs and try to calm my hunger. I hope mom gets home soon. -
They're Finally Gone
2003-02-01 13:09:48
And on their way out the door, they didn't hesitate to blame me for turning the heat up and put me down a little. Everytime Tom talks to anyone, he talks about me, like I can't hear it. He talks so fucking loud. Last night he drank too much and made an ass of himself. I'm glad they left early and were out all night.
I don't want to go to Allentown to see Mickey's parents. I like Mickey a lot, and Pat, too, but I don't fit in there. I don't know why Tom insists on making me go all the time. No one even wants me there, because I act like a bitch if I'm taken against my will. At least Hannah got snapped at for saying I'm a whore.
Tom finally bought me more conditioner, but only because he wants me to be presentable for his friends. He wouldn't get it otherwise, and I know, because I've not had any for over a week. He told me to make sure I had good clothes, too.
I still haven't gotten my contacts, but today Mom said she'd take care of it. (Yeah right -_-)
The Love Hina manga is dull. I read the first chapter of the first book today. Most of the characters are cuter than in the manga, except for Keitaro and Kitsune. Kei is just as ugly, and the fox is not foxy at all.
I know I said I would be sad for Meghan to go if Tom left, but she's been such a brat lately, so I wouldn't mind if she would leave us forever, as well.
It'd be great if they all got into a car accident. All except Mommy, that is.
I'll go shower so I can make myself feel better.
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