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MmYep.
2003-02-16 22:38:52
Got new boots today, not as big as I wanted, but they're still nice.
It's 8:37 right now, and I think I'll probably start working on a vid in an hour or so, get to bed around 3 or 4 in the morning, oh well. So long, reader, may you have as much fun as I am. Woo. =/ -
Work time.
2003-02-15 21:59:38
I've got some TERRIFIC ideas for a couple projects I'm going to start working on. The only thing that I'm really going to need is time, and my mouse back. (My mother took it from me for doing bong rips in my volkswagon bus.)
Oh and by the way, please refrain from hating me because of my physical appearance, hate me because I'm an ass. - I didn't run, I sat and watched... 2003-02-10 03:00:07 Yeap, its 1 in the morning and I'm stoned... I scraped my big fattie pipe, got me pretty... High. I feel like a ninja.
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Views of life are looking better than they did in Jr. High.
2003-02-09 23:38:50
Enough running from reality, I need to face reality with an unclouded mind... I've noticed this weekend every time I get sober, I start thinking about smoking another bowl to keep myself from going back to thinking about the pain. I need to just accept the fact that I can't stay stoned all my life, and that it's not going to help anything - the pain is still there, and it cannot be numbed anymore.
My ex called me up today, and invited me to go and watch her band play, kinda pissed me off, seeing as her drummer was pinching her ass in the background, and she was talking to him about it... Does she do this out of anger? Is this her way of trying to get back at me? Evil is a very strong thing, and I see nothing but evil in how she wants to treat me... I just want to get out of this town ASAP. I'm going to try and get out of here this summer, move somewhere else, anywhere...
I used to be suicidal, and if I still was, I'd probably be dangling from my fucking ceiling right now, but luckily for me, I'm no longer a dumbass looking for a quick exit. Actually that's somewhat a lie, being that I have 50 dollars of THC flowing through my system right now. Either way I know that life goes on beyond high school, and beyond these people and their petty attempts to hurt others. I know that somewhere out there is a person that I could spend the rest of my life with, without fear of them hurting me, hopefully... -
Life is worth living, I think...
2003-02-07 01:02:16
Well, I've noticed a drastic climb in the amount of pot I've smoked within the last 7 days, I hope it goes back down, I enjoy being able to talk without forgetting what I was talking about mid-way through a sentence. Furthermore I need to refrain from associating with people of mental and emotional immaturity, as they drag me down and make me realise how much I despise this town, which isn't fair since there are nice people here, somewhere...
My ex wont let me go, and she's being foolish about it, I try to teach her why she's lost me (or 'keeping my space' as she calls it) but she doesn't seem to want to understand or say anything more than it will take to get me back. The problem is that she can't get me back, and seeing this shows me how shallow she is to try and tell me what she thinks I want to hear, which has no effect. Such things as 'it was innocent, I only love you', 'there's nobody else, there never was', and the like are really pissing me off, and it's not healthy for me to dwell on it. I broke up with her to try and keep myself from pain, but it hasn't helped, just turned it into something different...
I don't like it.
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