- It's been a long time (warning angsty) 2004-04-02 01:11:42 Looking back on my past journals I seemed pretty pathetic. Looking at myself to today...I'm still pathetic. I have no job all of my friends are in college. And I finally graduated to do what just lay around the house because no one's hereing any where. I have almost no new anime, and I have no money either. But I think that somehow this is all my fault. One I procraste so much I might have invented it. Two I'm so afraid to talk to people so lately I become a hermit. And Three if only I would have payed attention in school I could be in college with my buds. But I didn't so I'm not. Man the only thing that brings joy to me anymore is creating vids. Yes I'm finally made some. But when I sent them to my friends (email) they told me they all sucked and could use alot more time. So the only vid they liked I uploaded. And I didn't even do that right. I chose direct link when it should have been indirect. No FTP seems to want to work for me. And to make matters worse the video is in binary. This life get's so hard that some times I wonder if I belong anywhere. It seems like I have no purpose. If your reading this thanks for listening to me angst it feels kinda good to let just a few of the millions of things that are bothering me off my back. And I now I go to dream of Death.
- One down and a dozen more to go. 2003-04-25 19:13:54 Well I'm finally writing in my journal again. It's been awhile since I wrote. Any way I finally got a job so...more anime for me yeeeaaa. Also I saw the most beautiful thing today. Now you must remember that I live in Tennessee so I don't see this all the time here. I saw a beautiful Japanese girl playing DDR. Her body motion was perfect she never missed a beat. As my heart started to dance. I realized my goal at hand was to get a job. So sadly I had to go. But I did get a job at an arcade so I'll get to practice DDR. So maybe just maybe I'll meet her again someday and we'll dance together. But knowing my luck probably not oh well. I always got my dreams. (sign) :) :(
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And the beat goes on...
2003-03-05 13:47:21
We'll just because I can't find the clips I need on the internet doesn't mean that I can't think of new AMV. I have ideas for other AMV's if I ever get my first one done. Also if you where on Im last night and wondering I popped up and then popped out was my father told me I had been on the internet for two hours. The only problem is that I Spent the first one hundred and fifteen minutes trying to figure out what was the problem and why the homepage would not pull up. Then when I did figure it out and got to the website my father told me to get off. Which on top of him denying me an anime that I asked for had really crushed my spirit esspecially since he told my sister that she could use it. Which she had been on all day. But instead of saying anything I went to my room to watch an old anime that I had. Suddenly my dad walks in and tells me that he wants to play munch's oddessee ( I spell that right no oh well) so then I stop the tape he plays my game. As I sit there waiting for him to leave so that I can watch my tape he turns it off and tells me to go to bed. This has not been the best two days. I hope I make til Friday wish me luck, bye.
- Let's talk Tuna 2003-03-03 16:25:58 Today I final got my istant messenger. I'm hoping to find lots of new friends and make alot of people happy. I was so overjoyed that it worked that I litterally started to dance. *_*8 Why did I say that? Oh well what's done is done. So if you want to talk to me enter my screen name The Noble Shinji and let's talk Tuna.
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Choice has been made
2003-03-02 02:51:31
After spending the day with a friend...what I get every once in while, any way he showed me some AMV's he had. One really struck a cord with me.
It was "Lonely Miracle" by Ermac it was exactly the reason I started this studio. But I was still doubtful when I got home I watched Battle Athletes and for those of you who have seen the AMV you'll find this very ironic. But after I watched it I stood up and asked what would Shinji do. And first he would trie to hide as I did...but then he would realize his mistake and get in gear. So after much thinking on the subject I realize that just because I can't find what I'm looking for now doesn't mean I won't find it.
So to all who answered my question (either good or bad) thank you for a response. Well gotta get to finding those clips bye.
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