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2003-09-05 18:35:08
Sometimes its hard to maintain that smile that makes me seem so cheerful. Sometimes its hard to be happy when all I feel like doing is crying. Sometimes it's hard to stay together when all I feel like doing is breaking.
But I'm here still!! So.. methinks Ro should be happies! No sadnesses for Ro. Me will be fine! it's just high suger thingys! Not diabetes! I'll be fine!! besides my feet are always numb and cold! It's normal!! I've always needed glasses ever since I was 3! I've got the best hearing in the family! I.. just go deaf all of a sudden sometimes from playing games with music too loudly! Me fines! No worries!! Moo!! -
moo why have I not been onlie..
2003-09-04 16:19:26
well I haven't been online because my uncle is over so I'm not on as much as usual.. since hes in the guestroom and me has hw!! me must works hard! tho I'm most likely gonna stay at home watching over my cats in the future!... wheeee... .... moo I wanna cat or cats!! who cares about children! me won't have those till much laters!! cat cat cat cat!! me wants cat~!!!
I will name one bakaneko and one moomao :3
hmm what else has been up... well... I was wondering what would happen if I continued eating sweet things or what if I got diabetes... well...
while we were shopping in T and T supermarket... my mom was like wandering off to buy fish while I stood alone looking at the tank of fish.. There was this one fish floating upside down looking dead... the fish that was beneath it separated from the dead fish by a wall was swimming upwards trying to get past the wall... the other fish stayed away from it as it tried and tried and tried to get to the dead fish.. but the wall remained.. and no one helped that fish...
it bothered me.. .... my mom noticed my eyes were swollen while we were leaving.. I guess u'd know why.. well... I came up with the excuse that I was still tired from my nap...
me feels empties.. me must not eats sugary things.. me wants live! me wants live!... me broke down on first day of school crying... and now its the third day already.. time is going by so quickly.. me felt kidney burning during class today.. maybe it was only my imagination.. moo that's it imagination...
moo me started vocal!! we did a hymn thing!! ish cool!! me also did english story!! I want to sends it to Errol.. me wonders if he will mind!! :3
welp me goes to email title to teacher now.. she says if we don't have it to her by tonight we screwed!! >_< so me gots to go think of a title.. so far me has "More than meets the eye" methinks it sounds good... :P -
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2003-09-04 16:10:03
so.. skipping meals and eating too many sweet things and nothing nutritious for the past two months has gotten me this.
I'm physically healthy. Nothing would look wrong about me other than the fact that I seem to have gotten thinner and am not gaining any height.
I got the results back from my blood tests... I have too much sugar in my blood. I can't have anything sweet for the next long while. Everyone in my family are really worried about me.
Hmm I am so stupid for trying to get away with not eating much. Heh.. Besides even if I'm hungry at home. It's always the same. There's nothing to eat. No crackers no cookies no fruits no veggies no fruit juices. Nothing.. all summer whenever I was hungry I'd jes go take a nap. Grand ma would cook the usual three meals. Breakfast.. which was composed of a huge bowl of noodles I'd never finish and then there'd be lunch which is something fried or noodles with wonton. Dinner would always be rice and whatever u kno meat parsly and soup.. the usual.. maybe some asparagus...
I of course would skip dinner since it's pretty much always the same. I'd miss breakfast by sleeping in. And that would be my life. All my years through elementary.. were and are always the same... I'd never finish my lunch which was composed of bread and water ... rarely did I have any snacks.. or fruit even. haha...
Now I'm in highschool.. I buy pasta from the caf a lot of the time because mom forgets to get me my bread and my juice... I never have snacks unless I'm buying it from the vending machine.
hmmm I'm comfused.. I eat so little how can I have too much sugar in my blood? I understand the lack of nutrients bit but... too much sugar? - mooo me a bad friend 2003-08-31 10:26:23 me a baaad friend to clam me should go and make self blind mute and paralyzed. moo me dunno.. I hate compliments so I don't give them out to ppl... -.- it tends to go to thier heads most of the time so I stopped doing such things long ago. moo maybe being antisocial isn't that bad.. I will look towards it during this school year. :3
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moo common sense..
2003-08-30 19:59:54
quote Nnjsword:Then again, I'm just glad that the comic will continue and that Vaz is feeling better now. I never really suffered from depresssion for more than a day at a time, due to my physical fitness, healthy eating habits, and practiced discipline. Being depressed is temporary, and you can force yourself out of it. Good nutrition, healthy amounts of sleep, and keeping in shape, will effect the behaviors and amounts of chemicals running through your brain, keeping the signals lubricated, and fast-flowing, allowing for quick-thinking, logical-thinking, COMMON SENSE, and not to mention a body that you can work with, instead of a body that just gets in the way.
Beau!! I have no common sense!! I do stupid things all the time! like put on makeup without putting on cream after washing my face all the time! OMG no wonder I'm always so depressed!!! and I don't think logically! I always have these crazy impossible schemes before my best friend Melanie hits me with something such as a binder for me to be reasonable agasin... as for eating.. erm... well... only during school year do I eat normally.. otherwise I skip meals and all that.. I don't know why I eat less during the summer... eh well~ As for a body to work with.. moo I jes sit around and sleep most of the summer.. I don't know about working.. moo ...
i guess I sleep alright.. I sleep... most of the day.. so that's ok right? I don't over sleep.. I stay up till 12 so I balance it out!! ... .... hmm maybe I am crazy..
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