JOURNAL: chutsupsei (ayu mai)

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  • 2003-10-01 00:40:16 search for the truthes within the lies ... in other words read between the lines.. know everything I've said is partially a lie.. that way you can see more than just weakness of character.. that way u see faults.. that way u can change.. your opinions.. your love.. for me..

    then.. everything would be easier..

    wouldn't it be..?

    I still find joy within my sorrow.. 
  • Taku Iwasaki~ Shell Guitar Ver. 2003-10-01 00:37:38 ro notices somethings different! yaay maybe.. he finally realizes I am weaker than I seem to be.. I'd love to grasp onto that hand that u reach out to be close to u.. but I have not the will..

    I too have self esteem problems.. I'm not as perfect as u think I am.. I'm human!... I'ma pathetic excuse for one!

    ^-^ so I encourage u leaving me if someone better pops up!!

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    behind the screen and there are not smiles.. only tears..

     
  • O.o me no remembers writing this.. 2003-09-30 22:26:34 Scar

    I don’t want to die yet
    But it sounds right
    I don't want to end it yet
    But is it the right thing to do?
    If I jumped off would I have any regrets?
    Because this is the end of me
    And then I never have to return
    This reality
    This world
    It is wrong

    I want to remain awake
    To never have to dream
    Or To never feel
    Or be
    Ambitious of the future
    Maybe this is wrong
    To never sleep

    To kill myself slowly
    Maybe
    I should stop before I hurt someone else
    I want to kill myself
    Is that so much to ask?
    Are you sure?
    If this is what you wish
    The end of it all?

    Someone
    Tell me to live
    And live unto the end
    Wait for the daybreak to come
    Wait for me to say
    All the things I have to say
    Just let there be time
    And wait for me

    But there isn't any hope
    Unless you grab this opportunity
    Before I go
    And fade away…

    Into your memories
    Wish for me to stay
    Please call my name
    And I will be there for you
     
  • Half Pain~ Bana 2003-09-29 20:55:39 how am I feeling..?

    don't know I'm happy and sad
    I carry on but I cannot see
    I'm almost blind without my glasses
    everyone is the same when you see nothing but blurred things...



    MOO 
  • unfortunately 2003-09-29 20:11:18 there are more things I'd die for than live for..

    :3 moo no one needs to know what they are.. 
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