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well
2003-10-25 17:38:47
Just to once again tell you peeps, I AM NOT AN ATTENTION WHORE! I just like to joke around and be happy.
The other day I almost left my home for good. Me and my dad got into a fight, I almost killed myself, and he almost took me away to a foster home, but for some strange reason I decided not to. Isn't that strange? I've always wanted to leave, but it was just going all to fast. Did I make the right choice?
My oh-so-smart parents decided to lessen my time on the comp. DON'T THEY KNOW I HAVE NO LIFE AND WANT TO KEEP IT THAT WAY!?!?!?! -cries- - -cries- 2003-10-22 15:35:08 Why did peaceblade have to that. It makes me so mad and sad. He said he would NEVER hurt me, so I gave him my trust. I should have learned by now never to give it out, but -cries-
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heh another journal
2003-10-21 15:30:22
heh I'm crying again, even without the help of my depressing song. -sighs-
I hate the world. I just hate it. -sighs again- No one ever believes me, likes me, or even I don't know anymore. I just want to curl up in my shell of skin and die. I......shit. the keyboard's gonna get wet at this rate. Even Hikaru thinks I'm an attention whore. I should just give up and starve to dealth. Let my stomach eat itself up. Let warped be happy. Let everyone on the org be happy. I can't let my parents see me crying. I want yoji... -
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2003-10-21 15:08:32
There is so much thoughts running through my head, so many question, so many people, so much anger in this world. So I'm just going to get it out in one word.
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Telling you about my life
2003-10-20 15:20:00
Sense most of you think you know me....And you don't...I'm going to post the real me. -gasps- I know.
1. I don't lie to the ones I care about. I get really hurt when people think I'm lying cause the other person says I am, but I'm not.
2. I am not an attention whore. I just need some fun and humerous stuff for me. in 3 you'll see why.
3. I'm a really depressing person in school. I hate my life there, and I wish I could die. I bet my parents are glad in home ec that I'm not cooking anymore, cause I use to stare at the knives and think about killing myself and what good it would bring to everyone. Now we're sewing and I'm thinking about poking myself in the vein with a needle and dying. I play sick almost every day to go home, school is so bad. I just wish I would die, but if I killed myself, I would go to hell. Sometimes I don't even care about hell, I hate my life so much.
4. When I come out of school, it's like coming into heaven. I'm so happy and hypur, it's like I'm talking to Hikaru. People hate me when I'm like this, but I don't care. I'm actually out of school and I need some air. It's like a little kid in a meadow of flowers. All he does is want to have fun, not sit around in hell.
5. The only times when I'm truley happy is when I'm talking to Hikaru or when I thinik about him. My parents always ask me why I'm smiling. If they ever knew about Hikaru they would die and yell at me. I just can never have my way around here.
6. Computer is like the altimate heaven. I get to talk to my talkies. ^.^ Of course I only get one hour, and I wish I had more, but that's ok.
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