- -sigh...sighs more- 2003-09-15 16:43:04 I decided that posting here was useless. People actually read these things and respond to you in their own journals, so I'm going to stop. I'll just talk to my brick wall. He listens. Never responds. But still listens. Either that or he blocked me and I never knew. -.-
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-so depressed-
2003-09-14 16:59:28
My life has no meaning whatsoever. I shouldn't even be living. I would have killed myself on friday, but we went to grandma's. u.u I wish I could die.
Warp's being nicer to me. I don't know why. Maybe I should go back in the chat. It's been like how many days? 5? 7? Don't know. i just know that I'm a useless slut that no one cares about. I've givin up on life and school and everything. People think I'm a liar and I bet Hikaru thinks that too. -cries- I just want to die. - -sigh- 2003-09-14 09:29:09 Nobody believes me about going suicide. They all think it's a joke or that I'm just doing it for attention. Really. I wouldn't do this for attention. That would be so stupid and cruel. It's so annoying too. -sighs again- I think I'll go talk to my brickwall now. He listens but doesn't talk back. ^_^ I lub him. ^_^
- -is sneaking on- 2003-09-13 11:12:47 Warped told me I'd still go to hell even if I did ask for forgivness after I sinned. Dan him. If I didn't know God would probably have pity on me and would send me to heaven anyways. Now what am I going to do? My life sucks. I really want to die. Damn him. My life isn't worth living. Maybe....nah. I'll just give up on school all together and fail lots of times. I'll never make it to RIT and meet Hikaru in Osaka. Man my life sucks. I really want to die and go to heaven. Maybe, just maybe, God will forgive me anyways and send me to heaven. Then I can be happy and meet Hikaru's friend that commited suicide, if he's up there. I really don't want to go to hell. I just want to be happy. That's all I want. I've givin up on life. It's just too hard.
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bai bai again
2003-09-12 15:32:01
My mom is banning me from the internet AGAIN because I talk to people I don't know in AIM. In other words, no chats, no AIM, and no org. I'm going to miss everyone alot, especially trythil. ((he's gonna kill me XD))
Well sense I officially have no life now, I'm going to kill myself on Sunday, when we come back from grandma's. DOn't want her to have a stroke. Be sure to see me and the news. I'll be famous. XD
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