JOURNAL: InSaNe KeYbLaDeR (CHO CHO! )

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  • Diajoubu 2003-09-10 17:47:29 I'm leaving the org for good. Everyone just makes me cry when I think they're my friends, or really upset. It just wants to make myself kill me more. But I can't. I have to keep that promise to Hikaru. To meet him in Osaka. But school is so hard. I don't think I can do it. I've already givin up on german, and I hate my social studies teacher. I hate my life. -cries- 
  • I hope Satomi doesn't look here >< 2003-09-10 15:02:29 Minniemoose((haha what kind of name is that? And he makes fun of me XP)) feels something for Satomi. He doesn't know what it is yet, but I hope it's love. Satomi needs a good friend. And they would make a good couple. Miss Quiet and Mr. Psyco. lol Oh btw. I have a dream. That's what keeps me alive((literally)). Calling Hikaru on the weekends. What a pathetic dream. 
  • YAY!!!!! 2003-09-09 16:03:40 I left the org becuase my mom banned me from the comp for life((don't ask why -.-)) but now I guess she forgot about it!!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!

    Btw I'm not going to commit suicide, at least not until I see hikaru-kun and give him a big huggle. ^_____________________________^ 
  • Bye everyone 2003-09-08 17:17:03 I'm leaving the org. For good. Long story 
  • He told my secret >< 2003-09-07 16:34:57 Warped told my secret. Now everyone thinks I'm weird, just like school. I have no internet life now. Great. I have no life now. -cries- No one likes me, except for god, but he likes everyone((well maybe not the devil)). This is so not fair. Why did he tell everyone. Now people are talking about my problems and I just want to kill myself early. But then my cat would starve herself. I love my cat. I can't make her do that. First she'll die and then I'll kill myself.


    I told dwchang this. He's a brick wall lol. So it won't matter. I just needed to get it off my chest.

    My mom caught, not me, but my friend talking about sex, so if she catches anyone again, I'll be banned from aim. Guess I'll be making more journals then huh?

    My cat smells better than yours.

    I stopped bugging Satomi. I really wish though that she had a friend. It would make life for her alot more better before she goes to hell. My 'friends' I just use to get me unbored, and they always make me more bored then I already am so it's no use. My mom is also limiting my time once again on the computer. Bah.

    I've just relized I have about 4 veins on my wrist. Which is the main vein. I want enough time to pray for forgiveness for killing myself after I slit my wrists, and then I'll put them in hott water. Don't you know? Hot water makes blood flow faster. This is the most common way to kill myself.

    I guess after I kill myself, people will be a little sad. Like I care. They never cared about me before. I don't care about my parnets. I've never loved them. For school, no one really cared about me so there. My friends, well I only used them so I don't really care. My cat....well she would already be dead so I guess I would meet her up there. See. I have nothing to live for.

    Now what to put. Oh yeah! I decided that I'm not going to spam dwchang. Awwwww. ((Dwchang: YESH!!!!!)) Instead i'm just going to follow him around and post, until he meets Satomi. Sad, pathetic life I have. I just really want them to meet, that's all. I don't want Satomi to kill herself. Warped Elemental on the other hand....

    Well that's the end on my journal. Who reads these things anyway lol. 
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