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Run
2003-12-01 10:28:38
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I
Would
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I want to run away forever. -
Damn NyQuil
2003-11-25 22:41:50
Cold - Suffocate
I could take every fucking word she says
Throw it in her face
but would she even care
I still remember when she looked at me
that frown upon her face
Trying to be sincere
I gathered all those little things she said
Kept them close to me
Trying to make this real
This cloud will alway hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'cause now I see
[Chorus]
Suffocate, you suffocate
That you lie (I don't lie)
That your fake (I'm not a freak)
Suffocate, you suffocate
You always take (I don't take)
What you can (what I can)
I could take every fucking game you play
Blow it all away
but would you even care
I could take all those lies you said to me
Never go away
Never dissapear
This cloud will always hover over me
I'm leaving you today
'Cause now I see
[Chorus x2]
Now I'm far away from you (You're always far away)
I'll never bring back yesterday (bring back yesterday)
You're such a fake it's true
I can't believe the words you say
I'm far away from you
I'll never bring back yesterday
[Chorus]
I always take
What I can
Stupid NyQuil. It makes me think way to much. I'm going to sleep this stuff off. -
Must kill co-workers!!!
2003-11-25 10:22:56
The damn girl got every worker in the library sick. I'm gonna kill her. I feel so weak. Damn flu!!!!! We're going through more than two boxes of tissues a day. My budget doesn't allow for the purchase of tissues. I'm gonna cut my head off and get a new one. This sucks!!! I always seem to get sick around this time of year. And it doesn't help that the weather isn't exactly wonderful here.
Anyways, I feel so alone. Almost all of the students on campus are gone except for me and my roommate. Needless to say, I won't we going home for Thanksgiving. It's not like I ever do. - Past 2003-11-20 14:05:12 You make me happy. Really, you do. I've just become accustomed to not being a happy person. Whenever I think happy, I think of something sad. I was taught to stop crying when told to. I was told not talk unless I was spoken to. I learned that when I failed at something, I was hurt. I demanded perfection from myself and hurt myself when I was unsuccessful. I felt hurt by words and motions. The physical, mental, and emotional abuse consumes me and I feel as if I am nothing. I'm haunted by images from the past and the pain from being hit. The wounds on my soul just can't heal. But, I do love you. A lot. You make me smile and I like that. Please understand.
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Idiots
2003-11-11 16:28:48
Why do I try to be nice when it's merely thrown at my head? I guess I'll just have to go back to trusting no one and keeping everything to myself.
Off topic note:
See you in hell Insane Keyblader!!
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