- New Vid Idea 2003-10-06 19:45:42 After two months of being blank in the category of video ideas, I've finally been hit with an idea. Yay!!! Hopefully, I can make it work. So, I'll be working on that one for a while.
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Haunting Anniversary
2003-09-17 21:25:29
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
'Cause I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere to fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast
Memories. I hate them so much. But, they continue to haunt for the rest of my life. How I hate this. - Wow. I'm entering the world 2003-09-12 17:34:29 I'm bored. I think I might actually go see a movie. Maybe "Once Upon A Time in Mexico". That looks good. Wow. I'm going into the outside world. That's a new thing.
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Empty
2003-09-11 16:49:43
I looks outside and see that everything is perfect
Except for me I'll always be the one who sits and stares
And now it's killing me, it's just killing me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
And it's killing me
I look outside and see that everything is different
You'll never see inside of me, inside just who I am
And now and then you're just my friend,
Someone I could talk to
And it's killing me, it's just killing me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
And it's killing me
I--I'm outside and looking in
I look into your eyes and see that you are perfect
Except for me, except for me
I feel so empty inside
'Cause I'm a freak in your eyes
I feel so empty inside
I feel so
I feel so
I--I feel so empty inside
I love this song. It summarized how I feel right about now. I'm just so lost and confused and I don't feel worthy of the affection that I receive. I don't want to hurt anyone or myself. - Why? 2003-08-31 16:07:16 ::bashes head into the wall:: It is now officially safe for me to die now. Either that or I'll go take my place at the unemployed line. I hate that stupid b----. Thanks to her, I don't have a damn job anymore. I might as well just curl up in a corner and die. In the world today, it's too hard to find a job. I'm gonna have to go through all of that trouble again. My only other option is to apply at the library. That's hell on it own level. Why me?
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