alive barely...

Jim Hawkings21122 · Post by **Jim Hawkings21122** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:26 pm

here i am alive and well.

for the most part anyway.

first i would like to thank all of the people here on the org that posted on my thread to give me advice, especially oto and savia, thanx for the link savia i called them and they helped a little but no all that much.

also let me clarify the reason as to why i posted telling everyone that i was going to kill myself.
I wanted advice from people who weren't immersed in my llife or the problems surrounding it, i wanted advice from people who could only give a kind of 3rd person persvective opinion on it.

and tho those who wante d me to die or were cherring me on, i have no bad will towards you, i can see now how from the looks of it that i posted for the attention and/or made the whole thing up, which is not what i had intended for people to think,

and to you el banana i know that you said you have lost what respect you had for me but know that i still hold some for you, regardless of what happens i kinda look up to you and a few other on the org, not as an idol or someone that i want to become persay just someone that i a fair level of respect for.

and not to disapoint some of you but i still cut myself a few times, most were not deep but one nicked a small vein or someting cause it bled a hell of alot. not anything fatal tho at the time.
i was about to make it deeper when a frined called and interrupted me, they could tell something was wrong by my voice and came to my house.

needless to say she was a littel suprsed when i answered the door with and arm that was dripping blood, after she bandaged it we sat down and talked (for some time i might add) in the long run she got me to not want to kill myself over it anymore and stayed with me most of the night to make sure that i would be ok.

so not i guess i realize that that was not something that i should have tried to kill myself over,and i am fine for the most part now.

i still feel very depressed about what happened but i don't think that i'm ever going to think about suicide with something like this ever again, cause its just not worth it....for just about any reason.

anyway i am currently pondering weither or not i should see a psychologist about this little *incident* or not.

Moonlight Soldier · Post by **Moonlight Soldier** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:28 pm

I'm glad you're alright Jim. And ya, I suggest talking to someone non- orgish about it.

/so happy you're alright : )

Org Profile · Post by **Otohiko** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:29 pm

Great news. I hope you get this sorted out and put past you, with proper lessons learned, etc.

And don't let those comments get to you. A couple of posters lost a great deal of my respect in that thread. There's a fine line between lack of political correctness and a lack of basic humaneness.

So, get well. Hope it's all uphill from here.

SSJVegita0609 · Post by **SSJVegita0609** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:32 pm

Thus more proof that the org is always there for you

I'm glad you're okay d00d.

Final Saiyyan · Post by **Final Saiyyan** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:33 pm

well i hope you feel better now.

you had me going for a while there.

whoever she was she wasnt worth it. you'll find someone better.for sure!

look at me ive been dumped loads of times . an i always thought she was the ONE. like a month later i was out with someone else!!!

Trident · Post by **Trident** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:34 pm

*hugs*

Jim Hawkings21122 · Post by **Jim Hawkings21122** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:35 pm

Final Saiyyan wrote:well i hope you feel better now.

you had me going for a while there.

whoever she was she wasnt worth it. you'll find someone better.for sure!

look at me ive been dumped loads of times . an i always thought she was the ONE. like a month later i was out with someone else!!!

i just lol'ed

El Banana · Post by **El Banana** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:35 pm

Nice to see you kicking, Jim.

First, let me say that I'm sure none of the posters wanted you to kill yourself. But some of us really hate to see anyone threatening to commit suicide, especially over the internet. That's what the Goth forums are for.

Either way, you need help. Make sure you get it, because that matter, no matter how hugely overblown it seemed, is certainly no ground to want to commit suicide.

KillDieMurder · Post by **KillDieMurder** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:44 pm

Glad to see your still around Jim.

And yeah, talk to someone. It helps.

azulmagia · Post by **azulmagia** » Fri Dec 05, 2003 8:47 pm

*sigh of relief*